How are you today thread (trigger warning)

It took a long time before I could post. I was just too filled with anger to be part of any group. I hear you. You're angry. Join us when you can.

Colin

Thank you Colin!
I'm so proud of Shae right now: we had a full blown Shae weekend and she showed self restraint where it counts

Ribcage_333 wrote:I'm so proud of Shae right now: we had a full blown Shae weekend and she showed self restraint where it counts

Good job Shae!

And hang in there Collin, anger can be a tricky thing to deal with. Trust me I know.

ShawTrav wrote: And hang in there Collin, anger can be a tricky thing to deal with. Trust me I know.

I hear you. Just got back from where stuff happened to us growing up. The whole time I was going around screaming angry! Everything I saw. Everything I heard. Everything I smelled. All of it was like stabbing me with a knife! But I had to hang tight and keep going so the system could make it through. Freaking out would have let the team down. Host got exhausted so I drove home in the rain. That was good. I needed something hard to do. I needed to be out in a storm.

Colin

Wow that must have been hard. Hope it was a healing journey and not the opposite. Driving in the rain, tell me about it... everything here in Texas is getting flooded.... again.

Holy ishzits!, colin.

I award the "Endure and Survive" trophy for this achievement!

Thanks BeccaBee.

I used to believe rage and destruction was the only way to keep us safe. Now I believe in duty. The team deserves to make it. They count on me. I'm willing to endure a lot for that.

Colin

IainEtc wrote:
I used to believe rage and destruction was the only way to keep us safe. Now I believe in duty.

Colin

I feel this. And also like the storms: like the anger can come out and meet something that is big enough to handle it

Yeah. Storms are pretty cool. They look like how I feel on the inside. It's easier to deal with that stuff when it's outside.

Driving home in the storm was kind of dangerous but in a good way. I mean I used to look for stupid dangerous things to do. This was something I could do that helped. I was keeping everybody safe in a dangerous place instead of making things more dangerous and getting people hurt.

Colin

Hi
Today I have been my sad and lonely personality for a while. I appear sometimes and I just cry and cry because I feel so lonely and I just wants someone to know. Nothing triggers me at all, I just appear and the tears are endless. So I have just sat up and I feel a bit better now because I have this forum. An hour ago I was fine and then I came upstairs to lie down for a break and a good rest and then it began out of nowhere. I think I am the personality who holds the tears - my mother would never let me cry - I would get punished if I cried, I think that may be the reason why I cry so much. Its definitely nothing in the present.
So hopefully once I go again my body can rest properly again and not cry so much.
Christina x