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Voxels are equivalent to polygons and vise versa. by highdimensionman on Tue Nov 16, 2021 2:55 pm
An object made with triangles and textures is equivalent to rendering Rotated cube voxels with triangular seams. So you could render the voxel components and seams differently.
Not only that but textures can behave more like voxels taking advantage of imperfect rotations to convey 3d better.
Each voxel is made of triangles so it's equivalent the other way round.

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Phase 11 # 26; loyalty, commitment, sacrifice by OMNICELL on Sun May 07, 2023 10:59 pm
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The whole Point of the Phase series is for one thing; To work through problems and processes that I can;
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1. Have a girlfriend again
3. Create my music and play it live .
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The goal of all this work is to break through the walls into reality; learn the character and skills to be back in the saddle again where its normal for me to live in reality; by having girlfriends; having romantic relationships with women; and creating music and playing it live...
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WHERE AM I KNOW:
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At a meeting; a discovery; Loyalty, commitment, and sacrifice...
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At the end of the meeting; speaking for the second time; this is what came up... Different concepts of loyalty, commitment, sacrifice....
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In the beginning; years ago; Decades ago; Half a Century ago...
I used all of these concepts on First Love; On her! Unfortunately; No real FIrst Love existed; Instead it was a criminal personality sociopath masquerading as a human being; hiding their real intent of seeing how far they could fraud me into believing they were innocent and safe; how far they could groom me in. They would attempt something as long as they thought they could get away with it; thats all that mattered for them; setting up innocent human beings...
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I had no idea what was going on and I created a scenario about that person and I involved all of me; My fierce loyalty and commitment and sacrifice for For my future with her... However; in the end their will be no future with anyone; I was being frauded.. After realizing She was showing signs of psychopathy; I realized no future was possible or any other interactions with that monster; I was completely destroyed and defeated from this. I had not found a best friend or a soulmate; I had found a predator masquerading as a human being.
I wanted so badly to find a best friend; someone I could relate with and move on with my life with; A best friend soulmate I could spend the rest of my life with; Unfortunately; I had not consulted God on this; and I ended up at the wrong door step talking to the wrong person... By the time I realized what I had done; it was 2 late... I was all in..
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THe point;
My ability to sacrifice for something I believed in; my ability to be loyal and my ability to commit to something; was now abruptly completely destroyed; beheaded and cut off from the light life; as if someone had cut my arm off with a knife. It was gone... My purpose was gone; My ability to fellow through was gone.
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With much work; These character concepts are now emerging; coming back. They are surfacing in me; However; I don't really feel them yet... that would be to dangerous; hopefully Ill be able to align them and feel them again and own them. And after this; maybe apply them to my Music and Art interests...
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My Music and Art interests have been little more then dabbling all my life. I've not been able to function or be present to make much sense out of anything; my nervous system and mind have been scrambled... Ive never been able to finish or even start anything; its just kind of a sporadic mess used for emotional relief.
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So; its exciting to say or see that maybe I can learn with time to apply these character concepts of loyalty sacrifice and commitment to my interests like music and art creation; See if I can apply them on a daily basis; see if I can handle it emotionally... I don't know if I can. It will be a new learning interest where Ive been crippled for a very long long long time.
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Ill pray about having success in this area. Ill use success based techniques on developing these character concepts back into my life...
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Sweet spots. by highdimensionman on Sat Apr 15, 2017 8:08 am
Natures law of Thermodynamics.
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Nature exists well where there is Thermodynamic shift.
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For example
On the surface of the sun where there is the biggest dynamic difference.
In dynamic parts of nebulae.
In the lava of earth where there is a dynamic difference between surface and lava point which laces gold.
By the vents in enceladus.
on the rocks just off from the north of Mars.
Lower bounds of venus.
and at dynamic points of covycombs where spacial dimensional rift gives way to sanctuaries a point where life can live being of the source life essence that permeates everywhere just like anything else space's eternal life creation ability no god needed.
around the edges of spacial tornadoes and other vorticity formation.

I indeed for this to be proven or to prove myself one day.

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The trek back! by OMNICELL on Sun Feb 26, 2017 12:32 am
Ive been on this site for awhile; 6 years! Something; 5 years?; I remember when I first Got here!, I would read posts and blogs of regulars that came round! I noticed something about some of them! they were in great pain and anguish and looking for answers! They had friends and people that cared; but they were not involved in the thick of the recovery process they needed! and year after years I would here the insecurity and pain poor out!

Now, as I get over allot of my pain and heal; Im slowly working my way back!

Working my way back;

I started out with a middle class identity! However, it was false! the criminal minded evil people I lived with " set me up"! They set up all the children on a false sense of security; this was done on purpose! each child was fooled into believing they would have a normal life! Each child led on! the father of the house hold would play a role as if a normal working father that would spend time with the children because he loved them! in reality, he was literally playing out a movie fantasy father role for his own kicks! their was no remorse or conscious in this monsters! it was all a thrill game! Nothing new here! one can google plenty of vids with child abusers such has this in documentary format!

My mother owned the house! When my father left! my mother was now free to go! her role as mother was over! she packed her bags, sold the house and left! If I had not attempted to find her through the years! I would have never seen her again! I was being used from the ages of 0to 7-9! I was exploited then thrown away!

When recontacting my mother; she acted like she had never met me or ever knew me!

After years of a torn to pieces life! I now have a real understanding; and a complete understanding of what happened! Ive accepted my evidence; the evidence of my story and situation! and am now really to return to the land of the living! So, the trek heads back to civilization!

Note;- the 12 step system saved my life! No one can interrupt me, no matter what I say, or how I say it! no censorship of my material! I get to speak my own story; no cross talk! and this is the most important long term aspect of my recovery process!

Returning to the land of the living;

So, Ive been preparing to return to the land of the living! This requires that I forgive all people from the past; especially any false friends I met when young, and brothers or sisters that took advantage of me! I have one brother that was a drug addict that stole all the money for years and years and years and years from the family system at every angle! they allowed it; mother, Grandmother! I saw very little of it! I was swindled out of my inheritance by both my brother and mother! I never saw it coming; I was mentally ill! I just wanted to be loved and a home! and my life back; I wanted to feel like I had a home and a life back and I belonged to someone! These monsters had no conscious! they felt nothing! I fell for it! I signed some papers and lost land that was left to me by my Grandmother! and suddenly this brother and mother stopped calling or contacting! Then I realized what had happened! what happened to me! I was swindled like before; nothing had changed! I had been manipulated and used! I didn't see it coming! I was older when this happened! I tried to come back to these false people, not understanding what or who they were! I found out the hard way what they were!

Im now on my way back to becoming myself again; its hard! no stability from the past! its like I never had a past! it was all a lie! where I lived was a lie! the people I knew as a child were a lie! the neighborhood I came from; no such thing! I did not come from this neighborhood! A house was bought in this neighborhood; the occupants would not live their long! I was one of them; I was being dumped! I had no real address, but never knew it! no one...

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Daylists on youtube by highdimensionman on Fri Dec 11, 2020 7:28 pm
An ai generated day list could list live streams of set length across the day. You could chose how old the oldest show can be. An extra way to learn or stay up to date also live streams could remain private when not live with good shared advertizng for popular upto date shows.

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