quietgirl2538's Blog

by **quietgirl2538** on Sat Jul 23, 2016 4:52 pm

I didn't sleep well last night. Story of my life. I was going through facebook, in which I haven't been on there for a couple months. I didn't miss anything. I left facebook alone for a while because I noticed it was affecting me and my moods throughout the day(s). I'm just that moody type of person that everything bothers her. I just am who I am. And whenever you get that through your thick skull, life becomes a little bit easier, I say to myself. I like Facebook, don't get wrong, but I just can't be on there 24/7 which is what it seemed I was on there all the time, events triggered me, or I'd be angry at posts people made. Just a very sensitive soul. It would dictiate my mood or my emotional life at times and that is not healthy. Some people are out there, some are funny, some are purely political, some are rude, some are really kind (too kind, imo), some are helpful, there are all kinds of different personalities there. So I am doing really good staying off the Facebook for long periods at a time, then I poke my head in there to see a few things from dear friends or family. Then I exit. In and out.

Well, I am still very happy over the event from the beginning of this week. I was "oh my gosh" so very happy. I still am, but the emotions have settled down.

My husband is a really great guy. He works hard to support us, myself included, as I don't have a job. I stay at home with the kids and I'm there to cater to their every need.

He is an electrician. I was also an electrician before I got married. I was at a much lower level than he is, but I still worked with electricity. It was fun. It's such a dangerous job but somebody's got to do it. I learned to be cautious and concentrate and be very careful about what you end up touching. You could get electrocuted. I followed my own advice and so I'm still here.

The weekend is here. Yippee!!! My husband and daughter are returning, one from a long work trip, and the other from NY, after getting to attend her best friend's Quince. We plan to go to a waterpark and to a few movies and just relax here. All is good.

by **quietgirl2538** on Mon Jul 18, 2016 10:54 am

I am extremely happy this morning. I can't quite explain why but that is the truth. That I'm thrilled beyond any expectations. God has blessed me indeed! I am so lucky in this life. Not because I have bipolar but because I have people in my life who are kind and genuine towards me. What more can I ask for? I have a husband, children, and dear friends :wink:

I went to bed all smiles last night and I woke up feeling the same way. I am writing it down so that I can remember it later.

My mood is stable. I am taking more Abilify. 20mg from the 15mg. What a difference 5mg can make. There was a time I thought the doctor was giving me sugar pills to test my truthfulness, but now I know better. I think I was paranoid and was still manic. So, I am awake and having my coffee and soon I'll have a breakfast of bacon and eggs. I passed up the sweet honey bun. I am a diabetic I shouldn't have that. :roll:

Today is going to be a great day, I just know it. It has already started in a very positive way and it will continue that way.

by **quietgirl2538** on Sun Jun 19, 2016 2:44 am

So, I decided to stop taking the Seroquel (with doctor's permission, of course) because of the way it left me, so drowsy, especially in the morning. I requested we try the other option of increasing the dose of the Abilify atypical antipsychotic. After 2 weeks+, I feel a big improvement in mood. No more mood swings. I am confident about these results. Abilify has worked for me in the past, to stop mood swings. I can feel the difference. My mood is stable. Trial and error has not been too difficult this time around. The psychiatrist has a record of all the different drugs I have tried and he knows which ones have been more effective on me. Abilify obviously has been one of them. I am determined to get stable and to stay stable. I will do everything in my power to be well. As much as is possible. I refuse to allow my thoughts to take a plunge into negativity and second guess myself or the possibility of being stable. Life can be hard enough without having mood issues. But it is my opinion that when you do have mood issues, you tend to be more careful about how you live your life. You sleep well, eat well, take your medicines on time. I feel as if I'm on a mission of positivity.

by **quietgirl2538** on Fri May 27, 2016 6:42 pm

Today I feel so light weight in mood. I feel so good and happy. I have slowly become more productive. My mood is so good I can't explain. I believe I was having mood swings and now I've taken my problems to the psychiatrist. I got put on a new medication with a low dose. I think it is helping me. Only time will tell if this is the right dosage and the right med. It's Seroquel 100mg. I go about doing my regular stuff and I not only have the energy to do it, but I do it and I want to get it done. I hope to God that this will last and maybe even become the norm. Crossing my fingers.

by **quietgirl2538** on Sun May 08, 2016 7:28 pm

It has been a while since my last real entry. I am doing well as we speak. I had gone through a depression that seemed to overtake me. I felt so depressed. It's too hard to describe how I felt. I have since stopped wanting other normal people to know what it's like to suffer like I do. They don't know and they really don't care. My circle of friends has gotten even smaller. Oh, yes I have acquaintances all over the place but my true friend's list has been dwindling. I have one less. She did something to upset me and lose my trust.

It's mother's day and I'm still on the same meds from some time ago. I have Wellbutrin 300mg, lithium 1200mg, abilify 15mg, lamictal 300mg and Seroquel 50mg.

Gosh, I don't really have a whole lot to share right now.

The Weekend is here!

All smiles

Positivity

Medicine seems to be helping

One less close friend

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