Also had goat cheese, standing.
Whole thing took place away from table and while surfing.

Clearly, feel very low about self, and self-destructive.
Putting words on it, all these supposedly sophisticated terms, only makes it worse.

Hope to just lie low and stick to sth reasonable, no crowing, no excessive humbling, for some time.
God.
Help.

Hugs

Thanx, Sanaga.