Our partner

brainslug
Consumer 5
Consumer 5
 
Posts: 195
Joined: Tue Sep 20, 2011 1:03 am
Blog: View Blog (76)
Archives
- September 2013
Update
   Thu Sep 12, 2013 3:24 am

+ April 2013
+ March 2013
+ February 2013
+ January 2013
+ December 2012
+ November 2012
+ October 2012
+ September 2012
+ August 2012
Search Blogs

Still neurotic, though

Permanent Linkby brainslug on Tue Jan 08, 2013 1:09 am

Well, I am feeling a bit neurotic about the situation. Things aren't happening fast enough, it seems, which is funny because I have always thought that things like this happen too fast.

I messaged her about when we should meet, telling her the times I have open, and she said that would have to check her schedule because she didn't know what time her classes were. The way she said it was friendly, so I am not worried about it. I gave a pretty poor response, though, just like an affirmation, nothing joking (or that kind of joking type of thing, happy talking, ha ha) like the rest of the conversation. That has been worrying me a little. I feel like I should have kept the conversation flowing. I would prefer to be still talking to her, but I was thinking she would look at the schedule, and we would work out a time, and then meet up today or tomorrow.

She still hasn't gotten back to me, which is worrying. I mean, she obviously knows her schedule now. She had to go to school today. No big deal, though. It doesn't mean rejection. It doesn't necessarily mean that she doesn't think it is a date. It isn't a specifically good sign, but it isn't too bad either.

I am just trying to relax and go with the flow. I mean, it has been one day. It feels like an eternity, but one day. That is all. I don't think that dates necessarily have to be arranged immediately, but I think it is best if they are arranged pretty quickly. I am kind worried, but oh well. What am I going to do about it?

I just need to relax. My blood pressure was pretty high yesterday night (155/103 according to a home reader, but that could be higher than reality). I drank some camomile tea and got it down to 133/82, so it was fine. I still need to take it today to see if it is any better. I have a bit of a headache, but maybe I am just being a hypochondriac.

Worrying isn't going to do anything. What is done is done. I just have to wait. If it doesn't work out, then that is too bad. I can't be worrying about it.

Definite social anxiety, at least a few prominent avoidant-schizoid traits. Plus other general confusion and strangeness.
0 Comments Viewed 45617 times

Who is online

Registered users: Bing [Bot], Google [Bot], Google Feedfetcher, HenryEmews, Majestic-12 [Bot], OMNICELL, Shiney2025