Well, I haven't been blogging recently. Mostly, this is due to me being lazy, but also due to everything being extremely uneventful.

Nothing much has been happening in college. I am doing pretty good in all my classes except calc. I pretty much failed a test in there today, so the outlook is not favorable. At least I can drop the test, so it is okay, but I need to learn how to study better which is more difficult than it sounds.

I don't know what I am not understanding. I just couldn't finish the test. It was really, really difficult. I didn't even answer about 1/4 of the problems, and the ones I did answer, I was not sure of.

As far as social interaction, they have been pretty stable.

My new lab partner is pretty cool. I stuck with the same new lab partner as I got right after my old lab partner dropped the class. I was going to switch to a different group because someone asked me to switch into a certain group so that they could leave it and go to a different, 3rd group (it is complicated, but I agreed because why not?) Instead, though, my current lab partner wanted me to stay in his group because his other partner was being immature and also not showing up to class, so we moved that guy into the group I was going to be put into, and everything is cool now. It made me feel good that the old new lab partner wanted me in his group.

I got into the honors program. Hooray for that! Actually, I was expecting to get in. I don't mean to sound arrogant, but my transcripts and activities from highschool are pretty good, so I wasn't sweating over it.

Anyway, I have been feeling a lot different recently. My wanting to be with people, specifically wanting a girlfriend, seems to have just suddenly fallen off. It has been slowly declining for a while. Mostly, it has been getting different, though, not going away, but turning more 'blunt' (as compared to sharp) so to speak. For the past few days, though, I have not really had any desire to be close to anyone at all. I mean almost none. Not really even any sexual desires. It is just flat out nothing. I have just been engrossed in fantasy and subjects of interest. I have been thinking some about community type of relationships or creating environments that allow for fun (mostly what an idea friend group would be like), but I have not had any real desire for a one on one relationship of any kind. In fact, the idea is kinda repulsive at the moment. I feel like I would be suffocated, but more importantly, I feel like I am free right now.

I am really wanting to move out. I just want my own place where I can be alone, and I currently don't want to share with anyone (well, I would share with some people if they asked, just because I care about them, but mostly I would want to be in solitude.) I want to just play video games.

Actually, I have been getting a craving to play World of Warcraft again. I don't know how I feel about this. It was pretty strong yesterday, but it has gotten better. Sometimes something will just trigger it, and I will feel like I really need to play the game, and it just ruminates in my mind for hours. Silly, I know. I don't have enough time to play it right now, so it will have to wait, but I am considering returning later (maybe over winter break) and checking out all the new content with the new expansion.