Is it my fault, that I am interested in his life, want to help him with his study and even sent an email to a girl he fancies but does not dare to speak to her even though I am in love with him?
According to that loser, it is.
He thinks the above things mean I am "interfering with his life" and "I do not respect him" "I am a stalker" etc etc. And when I get angry because I only try to help him he says that "I put on a show again"
But [i]I've had enough[/i].
I do not DESERVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, I told him that exactly. Of course, I will be the one who turns out to be hurt the most, since I love him more than he loves me. And that SUCKS. It really sucks. He is like, one of the few things in my life I really care about. Even though I don't know why. He gives me the feeling that its possible, that I am able to love someone, that my future will not be terribly lonely. He is the only one I want children with. Too bad he hates them.
My future was bleak already, but it will be even worse without him. BUT, I will survive. I just do not deserve this. It means everyone around me who doesnt want me to have a happy love life will be right in the end. And I will be the one who stays single forever.
But I don't mind. Today I will no longer function as a doormat. I hope he will never find another girl again that loves him the way I did. Serves him right. Even better, he should stay single forever. And one day he will know what he ruined, but then it will be too late. Too late. And he will call me, and I will answer the phone, and that will be the only thing I say before I hang up.