I am done with this forum,
I am done with all the ######6 people that always ignore me because they think they are better than me
I am sick and tired of people pretending to be friends and never reply again
I am sick of people that think they are oh so great because they happen to have some trauma or personality disorder, screw you you make me puke and you aren't better because you've got *real problems*
I ######6 hate this forum so much, it never helped me with anything. The only thing it ever did was making me feel worse...much worse.

I HATE OTHER PEOPLE
I HATE OTHER PEOPLE
I HATE OTHER PEOPLE

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NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME I HATE EVERYONE I HATE THE WORLD I HATE OTHER PEOPLE ###$ OFF GO ###$ YOURSELF EVERYONE NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME NOBODY UNDERSTANDS...

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In the morning, I went to my grandmother. It was very nice. My grandmother is a really modern person for her age and she is always in a sunny mood. Now she is helping me with my thesis, and I am grateful.

After that, I went to the library.
When I was walking through the library I felt like killing someone random.
Especially when I read a book I thought might be helpful. The titel was something about emotion regulation. But, when I read it, I discovered it was only meant for poor sad people who came from dysfunctional families. The book was not meant for me; even worse, it indirectly told me that I had nothing to complain about, am a loser because I am not able to stay happy and it's basically all my fault in comparison to the people the book was really meant for. I was enraged and wanted to rip the book apart, but I got a better idea. I wrote down my feelings on the first page, sarcastically wishing the poor sad people from dysfunctional families much fun with reading the book. I know it is childish, but I don't care. Because it felt so powerful. Like I took revenge on the author for making my life more miserable. And the best thing is that nobody said anything about it. Hahaha
I think I found a new hobby! Libraries in my town with whiny useless books about psychology beware

1. God , because he created me like this
2. My therapist
3. My friends, who like to annoy me with their perfect lives
4. My family
5. My ###$ buddy because he is STILL not in love with me
6. EVERYONE ELSE!!!!!

But they will not win. THEY WILL NOT WIN!!!!!!!