Resolve Rating 94%

Another sober day! Today is 6 days of sobriety since my last relapse. I was recently sober for 8.5 months and if I am diligent with my recovery work there is no reason why I can’t so that again (and hopefully go on an even longer sober run!). Sometimes when you relapse after such a long time sober, you can feel like you are starting from the foot of the mountain again. Really though that is the addict making nonsense thinking and trying to pass it off as rational thinking. Even though I relapsed, think of the money I saved from not acting out for those 8.5 months! If my recovery work helped me to go long that long sober, then doing recovery work can help me be sober for that long again.

In fact, last time I wasn’t posting my recovery diary online. And last time my recovery work dropped off which linked directly to me eventually relapsing. So if I update this blog every day I am confident I can stay sober forever!

My OCD fixations were around work (my OCD voice being confused about if I am working too hard/not hard enough) and once again the stupid “My Computer is too slow”. Like I say these OCD fixations are not rational but I’m keen to mention them in my recovery diary because I think they are part of the discord that leads me to act out.

As part of my recovery work I am now going to read some more of the book I’m reading about sexual addiction. Until tomorrow – stay sober and work hard at your recovery activities people!