It's really hard having my fiance in boot camp. He was supposed to graduate this Friday but he was injured. Now we don't know how long it'll be, and now we are both wondering if the military life is right for him anyway. He doesn't want to be away from family for as long as he would have to be. He misses us a lot, and is so sad he's missing so much of my daughter's growing up. She's starting to sit on her own, and will probably be crawling in a few months. He'll miss that if he stays in... He'll miss a lot of things by being in the military.

I know it's awful, but a big part of me thinks that I couldn't even stay with him if he graduates from basic training. His first tour on a ship would probably be the last straw for me... I'm afraid I'd leave him... I just don't know what else to do, since my emotions are so unstable even when he's right by my side! I just want him to be here with me. I want to cuddle on the couch with him... and make fun of each other... and be stupid together. I miss him so much.