So i have been thinking about changing my username since i came back from living in a theraputic residential community. Every time i logged in it was like remembering how bad things had been and it was a permanent reminder of where i had been. I am not ashamed or embarrassed about my past or the things that make me who i am but i felt that keeping the same username didn't acknowledge that things were different. It felt like i was still living it what was my life for so long. I don't want to deny what has happened in my life but i do also want to acknowledge the change and difference.

I decided to change my name to restored this is because i feel it best describes me now. I feel like i was once broken and my life fractured into many pieces. I never believed that my life could be any different that my life would always be one of dysfunction, self harm, chaos and depression. I feel like the name restored shows that things have changed and that what i felt was lost and would never get back has begun to happen. I have begun my journey of healing and rediscovering who i am, the things i enjoy and the things that make me tick. I feel that i am being restored to what i once was before i became unwell.