This probably isn't going to be the most possitive post so don't read it if your looking for something uplifting!

*I constantly feel low my meds seem to do nothing to help.
*I have constant thoughts about SH and what i want to do
*I have conflicting emotions about people that i should care about but at the same time wish were dead
*I have intermittent thoughts of suicide and thinking of making a plan just have to make it a few more days so that it doesnt fall on the anniversary of my aunts suicide
*No one gives a $#%^ about how i really am
*I could die and noone would notice or care
*I'm tired of fighting to try and make things different to make things better and they just get worse
*This year already sucks who am i kidding that things can or will be any different.

*hugs* I can relate to a lot of that...
I really hope things somehow start getting better for you.

thanks flowingtears ....... hugs to you too