I wouldn't normally post about the incompitence of the NHS because i think it is worth its weight in gold ...... that and it also provides me with a job However following my OH appt my opinion of some of the staff who have some how managed to get senior positions in the department suprises me. Because of her my mood has taken a severe dip and my urges to SH have significantly increased because of the many unhelpful things she said. Apparently i should know better, people in my profession don't do this .... apparently when i took an overdose i could have caused some serious damage ironically at the time that was what i was aiming for and then amongst other things dared to question my ability to do my job ..... i know that at the mo i am not fit to work however i am working on it and seeking professional help and hopefully that will mean i can in time go back. I am bloody good at my job and have worked hard at it, if i can't go back to my profession well my life might as well be over. I know that probably sounds dramatic but it is all i have ever wanted to do and i have worked my arse off at proving people wrong and to get to where i am ..... that and i LOVE what i do and if i didn't do this i don't know what else i would do.

Will have to wait and see what my CPN tells them and what the consultant at OH says before i know with any certainty what the decision about my career is ...... it won't be until jan that and also i have psych assessment tomorrow so h,mmmmm yeah lets wait and see