Look I am suffering through some serious emotional crises.It is feeling like I am tearing apart and as per I think the cause is my maternal aunt's sudden death and people's changed behaviors after the incident.I used to be a very cheerful,care free and a girl with lots of fantasies but now whenever I try to think something good the story's end is always death and I go into a depression because of the fear of death and loosing this world already when I am just a tennager. There is also another problem which drag me into depression that is people's behavior after the sudden death of my aunt.I have been brought up away from my relatives like these and I am not told those type of people much.To me life and this world was so non-evil just like in stories but what I saw on the day of my aunt's death just totally shocked me.They started to bring proposals for my aunt's children that very day.I became so disturbed that what was I thinking about this world and what it came out as.I mean how could this world be so cruel,without checking those children's condition they started to bring proposals.......were they serious.And guess what one day after my aunt's death there was a wedding ceremony planned and the marriage was of my widowed uncle's nephew's and I can't believe they didn't even postponed it and even they were forcing the children to attend and guess what my uncle even attended it.There is also anther incident that took me into depression.I stayed at my aunt's house for my cousins sympathy and approximately the second day after her death what I see is that all the people there were laughing and enjoying a big fat meal as a breakfast.I was so irked with that.Hate all of them.How could they!!!!!!
But apart every thing the question was what should I do to give relief to my anxiety.I am so depressed man! Help me.