I hate him.He ruins and destroys everything that belongs to me,or means something to me.These are PERSONAL ATTACKS.He molested me as a child,I ratted him out,and as he is my ######6 father,he made me PAY with a hellish life.I HATE HIM.He is old and decrepid,but still now a covert narcisstic abuser..He abuses,then uses his age,and acts like he is feeble,then acts like HE is being VICTIMIZED,when he is the sly bastard abusing and doing the victimizing.I can't wait until he kills over.I WILL BE FREE THEN.I am so tired dealing with his abuse.Not one of my SEVERAL siblings will help me take care of them.I am sick,I am tired,I have no energy or will left..I am struggling with no help.He took my trust as a child,he took my innocence as a child,he caused me great anxiety,shame,PTSD,caused me to self medicate,he ruined my life by devaluing me so badly as I never amounted to anything,or my potential because of his wicked,evil,unrelenting,devaluing,demoralizing,bullying and abuse....But to the outside world he was perfect,the life of any party,the helper,the good boy..Always the good little boy,just like he was to his screwed up father.AND MY MOTHER!!!!don't even get me started..How she allowed this abuse.ALLOWED,yes,ALLOWED me to be the dumb target child,so she wouldn't be his target,or her special children,who maybe she was trying to make life easier for because maybe they were STILL GETTING MOLESTED....You think?Possibility...So I got horribly targeted.After all,,had to kind of instill horrid fear in me,because after all,I did speak up to her that daddy was doing things to me in my privates that hurt..NOW....she didn't want the outside world to know..NOT THE CHURCH..haaa..NOT THE RELATIVES!!!Ohh book..NOT THE NEIGHBOURS!!!What would they all think??FOR SHAME..So she allowed the abuse and feared me.My thoughts of her aren't too high either....AND today,my darling decrepid dad destroyed all my beautiful flowers that were just getting ready to bloom when he came over and I told him NOT to litter in my yard....I HATE HIM MORE THEN I EVER HATED ANYONE.My beautiful special flowers that I have had for years the jealous ###$ prick ripped out of the ground.I am beyond upset..Just beyond this abuse.God,please help me,let me live freely in peace.