How do some people stay so positive and optimistic?Even when adverse events happen?Why does my mind over analyze every situation,or even words people will say to me?I can drive myself nuts,really.No one else does it better them me.Anyone the same?The old saying,'You can be your own worst enemy'..runs true for me.I can work myself upp into a full heart pounding migraine induced panic attack,over analyzing life,and everything in it.I can 'read'into the simplest of words,ideas or observations.Is this just me?my own personal genetic makeup?hypersensitivity from past abuse?hypervigiliance?Part of PTSD?Part of a learned reaction from being victimized?Others have been abused,alot dont react this way.Is this the way my mind and body processes stress?WHY??Im trying to figure out the healing process,but with so many things out of my hands,everyday life stressors and triggers,I seem to fall back into these ways of thinking subconciously.I probably have to retrain the whole way I look at like and react.I wonder how that is done.Its funny when you are born,no one hands you a book on how to handle life...but I suppose,no one comes into this world with the idea of being an abuse victim.What do you want to be when you grow up missy???Oh, a berated,devalued,minimized abuse victim!I DONT think so.