Another sucky day and i'm back here on this forum to talk about it. I just feel so upset and the intrusive thoughts are even more realistic now. For example when this all started for me (4 yrs ago) i'd just have intrusive thoughts of kissing a girl (im a girl) but now hocd produces thoughts like "oh, you wanna date her" and stuff like that. I just wanna end it all. I am weak and pathetic and i feel really bad and i hate myself i just wana my old self back who was able to see a girl and just think oh she's pretty and let it go, now my mind produces intrusive thoughts and i get groinals and i wanna die