This is my second post today because I'm really anxious and stressed today.

I remember in 8th grade thinking 'oh wow I wouldn't wanna date anyone now' and I was okay with that, but now when I'm 17 and never had a bf, I'm afraid that some boy will like me and I will like him but my ocd will ruin it for me, or that maybe I'll never return feelings to any boy.

I know that I'd never be able to connect emotionally to any female (like, have crushes or love them like that) bc it just doesn't interest me, with boys it does, but I get horrible groinals (if you dont know what that is - its when you feel something similar to arousal (but its NOT)) around random girls, even older woman which is ABSURD!!! I also thought that maybe I'm asexual if I don't wanna date anyone, bc sometimes I'd find a boy attractive and when he'd start paying attention to me I'd freak out completely. I thought also maybe I was asexual but I can't be bc I do get aroused and wanna have sex one day for sure, with a boy.

In a nutshell, I'm afraid that I'll never be able to date anyone because of my ocd. Idk, I'm REALLY SAD AND FREAKED OUT RIGHT NOW