Power Play in Relationships

Tempest80 wrote:Not entirely. Many things played a role. I used to do stunt BMXing as a teenager as well. I've done a lot of things that have been quite hard on my body, including drugs.

How stunty? Like professional with ramps and gear, or just around town flying around?

Tempest80 wrote:It has artificial colour in it, when I drink Ginger Ale I buy the all natural kind. I avoid artificial colouring as much as possible, I have an adverse reaction to it, behavior wise. This was discovered when I was a young child, it increased my aggressive behavior. I grew up eating a pretty all natural and healthy diet, my parents found it did help my behavior. I suppose I just got used to it, it's probably why I don't enjoy foods such as McDonalds etc...

I might look into that, though strictly I am not eating much of anything that isn't vegetables, meat, cereal, or fruit.

Tempest80 wrote:I'm sure you were getting the recommended intake or iron then

Yes, I used cast iron skillets as well. I am about to buy a new one, as the one I had lasted for years, and the teflon one someone gave me has given up after a few months.

Tempest80 wrote:That just seems masochistic. I enjoy taking full advantage of todays technologies.

Well, there were some benefits. I have been living in the same apartment for some years, and that was just a period in the apartment where all the technology was thrown out, and I lived like in a post-apocalyptic setting. I tried also unsuccessfully during this period to run a small solar panel in my window attached to a 12 volt yacht battery, but the lights I connected used up more electricity than I could charge into the battery with a solar panel.

Kind of stupid, but yet educational. I now know about 12 volt batteries and stuff, and the new fridge I bought finally uses less electricity than the old 1980s one that was previously in my apartment sucking up 30 dollars a month.

Tempest80 wrote:

michijo wrote: I found the okcupid section for Russia.

michijo wrote: Also checking out China

Watch out for the scams. There's many women just looking to get into the US and Canada. I had a 'friend' fall for this scam, I knew what it was.. but let him go through with it anyway. He ended up marrying her and bringing her into Canada, he's now responsible for her for so many years, she's a wretched thing. I know he regrets it She only used him to get out of Thailand.

I could have said something to him, but I wanted to watch the situation unfold for amusement. People are so ######6 stupid.

I looked at the Okcupid for North Eastern Canada today. Women over the border look nice. There is sometimes a ferry service from my city to Nova Scotia. I think it may be opening up direct service to Halifax soon. Women in Halifax are a good height, roughly 5 foot 7 inches, and thin, with interesting countenances.

michijo wrote:I looked at the Okcupid for North Eastern Canada today. Women over the border look nice.

All the fat eastern Canadian women are already married, so you're in luck lol

Tempest80 wrote:

michijo wrote:I looked at the Okcupid for North Eastern Canada today. Women over the border look nice.

All the fat eastern Canadian women are already married, so you're in luck lol

The ones I speculated were not weighty, but were about 5 foot 7, thin, nerdy, and cosmically intelligent looking. I looked at one profile of some spiritualist woman the same age as me and nearly 6 foot tall, and filled with some kind of poetry, in Nova Scotia. Her profile was filled with descriptions of birds flying over telephone poles and shadows moving across buildings. I nearly felt amorous!

michijo wrote: I nearly felt amorous!

Doesn't take much to get you going then.

Tempest80 wrote:

michijo wrote: I nearly felt amorous!

Doesn't take much to get you going then.

If that were true I would be after more American women! Women in USA are not very poetic you know? USA has a stifled reality. They are televised somehow. Must be the colonial in me after Acadian women from another century with Leonard Cohenesque visions of shadows on walls and birds on electric poles.

In fact I probably cannot even feel love. That is probably my problem. Attempts at being amorous can only be directed at women who write about shadows they watched crawl across a wall. Naturally enough the obnoxious boisterous smiling American women are intolerable, and I am not gay either, as the homos all seem like arrogant twits as well. Perhaps I really cannot feel empathy or love or anything, but only desire to quite a bit. Otherwise, why would I never be able to connect with other people or understand relationships?

michijo wrote: Perhaps I really cannot feel empathy or love or anything, but only desire to quite a bit. Otherwise, why would I never be able to connect with other people or understand relationships?

Have you ever felt love? Guilt? Remorse? Would you feel bad for a women being beat up by a man? Or a child being kicked and beaten by someone? Or would you just not care? I don't mean logically as well, put your logical mind about what's fair/justice aside while answering those questions.

My 9 year old daughter has Aspergers.. she has trouble connecting with people but she does feel love and empathy from what I can tell, and she definitely feels remorse. If you've had issues forming connects and relationships with people your entire life, it could be that you've shut down your emotions to protect yourself.

You don't strike me as someone who completely lacks emotions.

Tempest80 wrote:

michijo wrote: Perhaps I really cannot feel empathy or love or anything, but only desire to quite a bit. Otherwise, why would I never be able to connect with other people or understand relationships?

Have you ever felt love? Guilt? Remorse? Would you feel bad for a women being beat up by a man? Or a child being kicked and beaten by someone? Or would you just not care? I don't mean logically as well, put your logical mind about what's fair/justice aside while answering those questions.

My 9 year old daughter has Aspergers.. she has trouble connecting with people but she does feel love and empathy from what I can tell, and she definitely feels remorse. If you've had issues forming connects and relationships with people your entire life, it could be that you've shut down your emotions to protect yourself.

You don't strike me as someone who completely lacks emotions.

Oh, I have emotions all right. Anger, sadness, loneliness, but I do not think I have love. I am wondering if it is possible that this emotion doesn't really happen?

I am glad I have anger management group today, as i have been getting angry lately.

michijo wrote:Oh, I have emotions all right. Anger, sadness, loneliness, but I do not think I have love. I am wondering if it is possible that this emotion doesn't really happen?

I have no idea if it really exists or not. The word 'love' is associated with a certain feelings, so I suppose that in itself means it exists, what it feels like though... I have no clue.

michijo wrote:I am glad I have anger management group today, as i have been getting angry lately.

I had one psych recommend anger management for me, and another argue against it... the group wouldn't take me anyway. I didn't need it... I don't have issues with anger, until I get angry lol which is rare. Plus, no amount of therapy would help me when I'm angry.

This is why my psych said I should do when angry http://s1139.photobucket.com/albums/n55 ... eport3.jpg

But I refuse to take medication, plus... it makes no sense. I'm in one of my aggressive states and I'm going to stop to take a pill? Unlikely.