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Inside my head (like anybody gives a $#%^)

You feel like you’ve been killed. You don’t exist, you don’t matter, you’re irrelevant.
You never really appreciated the good people in your life because you’ve been so focused on the bad.

They were bullies, they have to live with their actions for the rest of their lives. When they finally get some empathy or go on a psychedelic trip, they will feel all the pain from ...

Im a 24 year old female who got diagnosed with bpd depression and anxiety last year. The last 2 weeks i have been having really bad suicidal thoughts. Im on prozac 40 1x a day and cymbalta 30 1x day. I feel that i need to go to a mental unit, but i dont have insurance right now. My mother and best friend are behind me 100%, but i am scared how my boyfriend (of ...

I should prolly preface by saying I'm currently dealing with fallouts from 2 relationships (was the dumper in both cases). That left me with pretty much no friends. I'm likewise a mild bpd case, probably dont have it as bad as some other, I dont rage or split all that strongly per exemple.

I'm pretty much all over the place right now, emotional trainwreck. I know I'm lazy and dissociating like MAD. My school session ...

Does anyone else experience chronic back pain?

I've had chronic upper back pain for the past 5 years. I am otherwise healthy and in good shape physically. I'm not overweight and I try to exercise every day. But I can't shake this back pain. I try to stretch my neck, I massage my shoulders, but nothing helps.

It gets worse when I'm stressed out or when I even think of doing something I don't want ...

Hello everyone,

I am looking to connect with fellow BPD'ers from central Scotland.

Look forward to chatting.

ILD

Hi all,

Just a quick question - does anyone else get extremely jealous when someone else close to them (eg a friend or family member) is suffering more than them?
It sounds crazy, but I almost feel like other people aren't allowed to be ill or sad except me.
Is this common among you guys? Didn't know if this is a symptom of BPD or not, or if it was just me?

Thanks

I was a little depressed yesterday. But ok. I took a walk with my husband and doggy.

Then I became aware through our conversation that he is not doing everything he can
do it get more freelance jobs. He lost his main income. It's that he is an extreme
introvert and doesn't have the confidence to go out and get jobs and network etc. This
dynamic has happened over and over these past 14 years. ...

i have anger against everyone, revenge. i cant see people happy. theres this hatred inside me for the ones who gave me this bpd. i know revenge wont do me good, but i cant take it anymore. why is it so difficult to get over this.

i know its pointless to think what life would've been had the past been different but its so easy to stay in depression and day dream.

Hi everyone. I got out of the hospital about 3 weeks ago. I was okay for a week and thought that after seeing how bad it could get, I never wanted to hurt myself again. I came off the meds which were causing horrid physical side effects. Then a week ago, I went nuts, impulsively dumped my boyfriend, slept with a very sociopathic person I've only known for a week, and was basically drunk or ...

I'm new here so a little background on me. I'm 30yrs old. I was diagnosed over 7 years ago with BPD. I decided I was not going to let it control my life. My father had it and I cut off ties with him for 15yrs before he died. I figure most of what I believe to be real and isn't is in my head and I can fight it. To me knowledge is power. ...