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I do it for numerous reasons one to sabotage my relationship. Two because it's the only way I can make friends. Three because I have little respect for my body and four because I like feeling wanted.

Am I the only one who can't keep her trousers on?

I'm stuck in an endless circle of pain and misery. I'm 28, currently live with my Mom and her Husband. I lost everything due to being an Addict/Alcoholic and not being able to hold a job. I also found out almost a year ago that I am BPD, which was probably a large chunk of why I have been an Addict/Alcoholic as well as why I tore through almost every friendship, and job I have ...

Hi there.
It's late, so, I won't say much. How appropriate. Anyway, me, I'm a weird one. Quite the attractive girl, I know that. I'm 26, only had one romantic relationship, which was a utter failure. I like to be alone. I need to be alone. Yes, I need some time with my friends, but only for short periods of time, one on one. Can't handle more than that. I have almost zero sex drive, ...

Hi, How is everyone doing?
Well, I don't know if anyone here had ever been obsessed with someone, but I had never been obsessed with anyone until now.
Two months ago I went to a school trip to the art gallery in my city, and I met someone. Well, I didn't actually meet her, like I didn't really talk to her that much. I just had a really really short conversation with her that day, ...

...I am not actually planning on doing it at the moment, but maybe in future if things don't go well and there is objectivly no more hope to have life I've always wanted.And I'm also thinking about faking suicide attempt by doing something that looks dangerous without really risking my health to teach my father a lesson.For now it's all empty threats and he's starting to see that.

Please don't judge me.And don't forget to ...

I consider myself an "older" borderline person. I know that we aren't supposed to say that we "are" the disorder, but sometimes I wonder. But anyway, that isn't the issue..............

Boredom.

It doesn't happen all of the time. I am not always empty. Mostly, I feel fulfilled. I would say that a good 95% of the time I am okay.

But when I am bored, its bad and I get that emptiness--and it is very ...

This is mainly with borderlines around my age.

Whenever I see another borderline, online or off, I get insanely angry at the fact that they even have a diagnosis. Then, it goes into a pseudo 'sizing each other up' to see who is sicker, whose overdoses almost killed them and who has been on a psych ward more/longer. It's quite childish.

It only happens with other borderlines and even with the girl that I'm close ...

I was supposed to have a therapist appointment today. She had a baby and was gone for 2 months I was really looking forward to it and was proud of myself for handling things the way I have. But when I called earlier they said she quit completely their therapists are booked up and they have no clue what to do with me. I feel so hurt numb mad. I've had the same therapist since ...

I am the child of a drug addict and a mentally ill mum who I cared for. My dad was in ans out of prison throughout my childhood. When I was 13 I entered a very abusive relationship culminating in rape. The rape resulted in pregnancy and I was forced against my wishes to terminate. After the termination I was hemorrhaging but I refused to tell anyone as I wanted to die. Eventually my mum ...

Life has changed for me a lot since I last logged on. I finally found the strength to file for divorce last month and it felt liberating. I also joined a gym and so far I've lost 44 pounds already. I'm talking back with my ex (the narcissist; see my previous threads) who's girlfriend broke up with him the last week in September because he can't/won't find a job. Honestly I'm not surprised by this ...