News of Borderline Personality Disorder Forum

(I have not been professionally diagnosed with BPD, but I'm 99% sure I have it just FYI)
My boyfriend and I have been seeing each other for around 8 months. I love him very much and I know he cares for me, but whenever I say 'I love you' to him and he doesn't say it back (he says it's too early??) I get very sad.

He doesn't want to have sex as often as ...

My behaviour the last year has been insane. My moods fluctuate on nothing. I was being treated for bipolar disorder and have some history with PTSD. But, when I started to read about the love hate relationship characterics I knew for sure. That and the fact that I am incredibly implusive and cannot control this right now. I'm starting to get scared. Or push anyone and everyone away I just don't want anymore emotional instability. ...

I day dream a lot and constantly imagine a different past. its taking too much of my time and energy. i cant stop dreaming though.

the abandoned kid within me imagines situations where he's crying and helpless and he imagines his friends coming over and cradling him. its insane. its always running in my mind.

this imagination of a different past, is scaring me that i might enter a parallel world where the past was ...

Just wondering what BPD/mental illness has done to your belief system. I'm an atheist. It's hard to believe a benevolent God would subject me to this illness. Are you religious? Do you believe in God/Higher power?

There are probably many threads like this here sorry to add another. I am new to the board and have not spent much time reading yet. My apologies for the length of this post.

I'm in my early 30s. I went through a bad patch 18 months ago after I impulsively quit a stable job with a plan involving suicide. I did not go through with the plan and managed to fight my way back ...

CANNOT STAND the city I live in! Its complete TRASH!! I'm just living here watching it slowly decline year after year. Lots of ghetto people I hear outside of my window saying ridiculous things. Theres no shootings right where I live but I know a year or two ago there was a shooting like 7 mins away from where I live.

I'm only still hear because I cannot financially afford to live on my own ...

I have something to say I think some people may take offense to but hope this post will not be taken off. I want to be honest so if it causes offence then that isn't my intent but I feel that borderline may be a fake diagnosis given to women who are aspd or also some histronics get put into it. I think society hates knowing that women can be as tough and cold as ...

So good news everyone! The hospital that I just left that diagnosed me with BPD is going to put me in touch with a BPD specialist to work with me! I'm really excited about the prospect of working with someone who will finally understand what I'm dealing with. I'm so glad someone is finally taking me seriously. I feel like I might actually be on the right track! Just wanted to share.

Has anyone seen the character of Mysteek from x men. I feel like i'm her. its like my thought process, body language, perception, accent, choice of words suddenly changes and i feel like i'm in the skin of this person or behave like that person.

the only time i'm stable with my identity is when i'm crying/intense pain or in anger or joy but other than that the perception keeps on shifting.

at times i ...

I found myself at the lake today a place I go everyday. I thought of how easy it would be to swim out and stop. I panic in deep water so I think that I would drown because of my anxiety before breathing in water. I've come to the conclusion that mindfulness has become a bit of a curse in my life. In the past I would use smoke, wine, sex, people to sooth myself ...