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I'm driving myself completely insane. I have no clue who I am. I have at least 3 persona's that I switch through regularly every day, and they are all completely different in terms of sexual orientation, religion, goals, personality, looks, style, wants, needs, etc. I have no control when these persona's take over, I can just sit in the back of my mind and hope nothing bad happens.

Whats wrong with me, and how do ...

I havent been apart of a "group " in such a long time.... and I need something (dont know what just yet!) to feel connected to people.
A bit of my back ground... Im 31 and have been in and out of therapy, pdocs, hospitals the whole thing since I was about 14 yrs old. I been Dx with a whole slew of things ( started with: PTSD and clinical depression, through the yrs, eating ...

So I have been working heavily with DBT for awhile now, and I am feeling somewhat confident in myself to approach the dating scene again after all the mess I went through before (cheated on, non's wanting nothing to do with a BPD).

Those who are using DBT or have so in the past, do you have any advice? I feel like I have this new weapon, and I want to use it, but I ...

Unfortunately, I think I've reached this. I hate to say it, but I think I give up. Not that it makes me suicidal. Just hopeless living-dead.

Perhaps, I have more fight in me yet. However, I think even my want to move forward is fueled by despair rather than the hope that something good can happen. Maybe, I'm just near an event horizon.

Anyone else near? If so, why? For me it was my birthday. ...

My stupid computer needed to be reformated, and now I don't have and can't find a link to chat.
Can someone help me? Here in this thread or through PM if you'd rather? Thanks much.

well.......?

Yesterday (xmas day) I didnt do shite all.. got told a few days before "oh yeah we arent buying for each other this year" after I had already bought some presents.. and my mum still expects hers even after she told me "we arent buying" :roll: well guess what U ARENT GETTING FA!!

Today is boxing day and my brother and his g/f are meant ...

I ran into my ex with his new girlfriend last nite.

I didn't want to know, even though I suspected, that he would be bringing her home to his family & also spending the New Year with her.

I cannot handle what I'm feeling. I've never felt such pain.

This is my first post and to begin, I'd like to say thank you to each and every one of you that seeks, that reaches out, that tries to to help. This society seems to be inclined to ignore, to push under the rug, these issues we all face, whether disordered or not. I've been actively searching through and reading many valuable posts on this site. I have learned a lot. I am grateful. Again, ...

So I don't really know where to start or what I am really looking to accomplish from this post.
also thank you to anyone / everyone who takes the time to read this


Im 21 senior at a top 20 business school in the US diagnosed with Bipolar type II and GAD from Feb 2009.

Will post my past later in this thread/post prolly i guess.

started college up in boston (grew up in Florida) ...

Just saw someone refer to some of the sites inhabitants as "feelers"...LMAO. I think I am one of those being a borderline.

Got to get used to some of the terms used here.

Like NONs ...what is that?