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I'm typing this on January 1st for a reason. I've never been diagnosed or gone to see someone for BPD, but you know when you have it, and I have it. It's become more prevalent now than ever before and I need help; I'm not going to let it hold me back anymore. I'm a very happy person and I'm thankful for all the people in my life. I'm posting here so you guys can ...

So here it goes I guess..

I have a really nice boyfriend who treats me like the world. He knows about the BPD and doesnt care and I love being around him. I know that I am happy and in love but it's frustrating that I dont FEEL it. I always had to cut off emotions because they were never validated so Im dead inside all the time and that sucks

Hi guys,

I am new to this and thought it would be great to get a perspective off here. I don't know much about BDP myself as I haven't had time to look into it much yet, I have only been with my boyfriend for 3-4 months. I am just a bit confused because he has been putting across to me that he loves me so much, he cannot live without me + that he ...

When diagnosed with bipolar and borderline personality disorder i handled it well for then knowing for the first time what was my problem.

But after the shock the mind starts thinking and the heart starts breaking.

My mother has bipolar and although she knew it she never took meds and no one in the family knew except my father, who she beat and abused for years (mental and physical). Growing up i had to be ...

I have always found new hope this time of year. It is doubled this year because I know so much more than I did before. I have hope of being recovered, of being whole, of being ME.

I was doing the whole "I have to be a perfect mom, because my kids are GONE in 2 and 4 years. I know my kids and they aren't going to abandon me, now it is MY turn ...

So… I went to see this specialist today about a problem I've been having for the past several months. He isn't 100% sure about what I have and wants me to come in for some tests in a couple of weeks but he did tell me that he is almost certain that it's a certain chronic disorder that will probably last me for the rest of my life. From what he told me, if it ...

I'm not sure if this is what they are but sometimes I feel as if I'm living out a dream and that I have yet to wake up. Fragments of memories flicker around the threshold of my mind and everything feels unreal. As if I were high, almost. Only I know I'm not because I've experienced substance-triggered dissociation.

I also sometimes get manic episodes, which may be related. I guess I should tell my psychiatrist ...

There are so many similarities between the two ....

its quite hard reading the DSM at times to see much of a difference.

I suppose the hPD is more shallow emotions right ?

I feel much better. There is really something to be said for confronting your problems head on and being able to admit when you are wrong.
Though of course I couldn't do it without the support of my DBT therapist and those closest to me that care
You people in the forum have been really awesome to me. Thanks a lot. Have a happy and safe Newyears guys! <3

So, here I am. A week out from my last dose of Xanax. I have trigger medications (I.e. lortab) that when combined with my normal meds, Xanax 1/2 mg twice per day and 1 mg at bedtime. I can write off a million bad decisions then and I don't completely black out, definitely grey out and though I can give a rough timeline, I can't tell anyone exactly what or where I am.

So, I ...