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Anytime I do something whether its just dyeing my hair a different color or painting a picture etc I always ask people over and over and over again if they are certain they like it or not. Does anyone else do this? It's like I must be constantly reasurred that what I did doesn't suck. It annoys people I think, but only the few people I actually talk to and I think they are used ...

I know I have either one of them, but since APD is an Axis II disorder, there wouldn't really be a sudden onset and that seems to be the case with me. I was shy and introverted as a child and as a teen. I thought I would grow out of it but i never did. Then I got treatment for an eating disorder and was prescribed Prozac and I found that it has helped ...

I'm mostly talking about when people you don't know well ask you out of polite interest/making small talk, not so much something like your mother asking what you got up to last week. For instance, I'm in college, and I tend to get classmates asking me what I'm doing this weekend (not because they actually are interested or because they want to see if I'm free to do something with them or any of those ...

I've always noticed that I'm much more uncomfortable than normal around small children. I'm guessing this is because they haven't yet figured out that it's considered rude to stare at people who look different or to ask certain questions like "Are you from China?" Like the other day when I was getting ready to leave for work, I dreaded walking out the door because I heard the kids from the apartment next door playing on ...

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I was just wondering if you have any recurring dreams and why do you think they are.
I personally had a recurring dream
when I was a kid until the age of 12 and it was nothing more than me running away through rooms and long corridors from a very large crowd. Most faces were strange and disformed and others were people I knew(those I recognized used to change).
I say it was until 12, ...

I just feel like writing what I am feeling right now. Not sure if it will help me, nevermind anyone else who reads it, but I feel like doing it anyway.

I am having a rotten time. I haven't been that healthy lately and I have been quite isolated. I am feeling so alone that I feel like the walls and ceiling are going to cave in on top of me.

There is no one ...

So, my depression comes and goes. Sometimes the depression last weeks and the non-depression stage a month. But I've noticied that what triggers the depression state is watching people my age(23)-especially when they're in groups. They all seem care-free and friendly. If I see a couple I find myself comtemplating my loneliness(even while working) and if I see a group of girls(especially beatiful girls) my self-esteem goes so low that I find my facial expression ...

For a while now I've been surprised to see fellow Avoidants on this forum putting up their AIM or MSN contact information. It just seemed strange to me that people who are just as insecure and reserved as I am would be able to keep up a conversation, even if it's just via a computer screen.
Nevertheless, I've decided to try MSN myself recently, thanks to some encouragement by friends.

What I was worried about ...

I know I am overreacting, but things like this really get me down and slow me down and depress me, and make me feel really miserable. And I have noone to vent to right now. I missed class today because I fell asleep. Why oh why did I decide to take a nap. I want to shoot myself. Every lecture is super important if I want to do well on the final. This is the ...