Journey Thread- Ponyta

Just venting a little:

If it's not bad enough that we have all of this stuff going on in the outer world right now, we also have several who think it is funny (in our inner world) to keep tormenting me. I don't know where all of these guys came from, (they sound like either new ones, or they are the same ones somehow disguising their voice), either way, they are driving me insane.

I tried to be nice to them. They will not respect my wishes, even though I'm trying my hardest to be nice to them (it is hard when they say certain things). I don't know what is wrong with them. They all are saying very similar things to me, so for all I know, maybe it is the same person. We do have a lot of shapeshifters in our inner world. Who knows.

Just UGH! With everything going on, it really has me even more upset. At least our rapid switching seems to have stabilized a little, as of late this evening. I know tomorrow is going to be super stressing though, so

Oh and we had to miss yet another appointment, we had originally scheduled with our T. Just because the whole insurance thing STILL isn't fixed yet. That most definitely is NOT helping things one bit.

Not happy. We DO NOT want to go to the T that our insurance now says they want us to go to. Never seen that T before, BUT I don't think she even does anything we need help with, PLUS she is at an office where we were triggered by someone else. Big reason why we don't even want to go there. UGH

VERY TRIGGERED RIGHT NOW!

Trying to get the stupid insurance problem fixed, but they are giving us such a hard time. UGH! At this point, it is looking more and more like we need to change insurance. Probably be a lot less stressing that way, but even so, that would mean we still won't be able to see our T for a LONG time. UGH.

certainly sounds enormously frustrating, sorry, we know nothing of such things. hope it's resolved positively.

littleDaria wrote:certainly sounds enormously frustrating, sorry, we know nothing of such things. hope it's resolved positively.

Thank you, littleDaria! Your reply is greatly appreciated!
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Yu is bothering me again (inner world). Terribly bad. He took a break for a week or so (wasn't bothering me), now all of a sudden he keeps coming over to me (in the inner world), and won't leave me alone. I told him well over 500 times (probably not even an exaggeration) to stop bothering me about what he is. I told him that I am not going to change my mind. I told him we can be friends, but that is it.

It is a huge mess with the insurance, and another thing that happened in the outer world, plus it doesn't help things that Yu and a few other troublemakers are giving me a hard time. Yu is the worst one (inner world troublemaker) as of this week. He keeps coming over at least once a day. (Sometimes over two times per day)

I can't get him to leave me alone. I told him I have several things I need to do (in the inner world), to throw a hint that I can't talk to him right now. BUT he doesn't care. If I try to walk away from him, he follows me. UGH! I really do have A lot of things I need to do in the inner world (and they are getting postponed because he just won't leave me alone, and I hate being rude, so I listen to him instead of just trying to walk away.)

I keep telling him to leave me alone (IF he is going to keep saying the same things over and over again). I told him the answer is "NO". He will not accept that answer. He keeps asking how he can change my mind. I told him the answer to that is "Nothing will change my mind." He will not accept that. It is so frustrating. I don't want to be mean to him, BUT if he keeps it up, I soon will be mean (HE IS AGGRAVATING ME!!!!) So horribly bad.

I didn't mention the whole story about Yu, BUT trust me, he is being beyond ridiculous by his request. Saying "no" may sound mean, and to him it might be, BUT I'm not going to hurt my inner world Husband.

I don't think saying "no" is mean if you really mean it. You love your husband and don't want to be with Yu. The best answer just seems to be "no", then. I don't know why it won't work with him, though. So sorry.

- the Neighborhood

Truly_happy wrote:I don't think saying "no" is mean if you really mean it. You love your husband and don't want to be with Yu. The best answer just seems to be "no", then. I don't know why it won't work with him, though. So sorry.

- the Neighborhood

Thank you for your reply! It is greatly appreciated!


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Our host is extremely stressed out. Around 95% of us are [to my knowledge]. We are still having issues with our insurance. We haven't been able to see our T for so long now- that we have no clue when our last appointment was. All we know is it has almost been a month {or even a whole month} now. It is so upsetting. We haven't even received any information about what our insurance is doing- other than looking for other Ts in our area. The crazy thing is- they asked us what we needed for a T- then they come back with ones that don't even meet those things. They said we can get one in 4 months. Like really? Seriously? I bet if we would research that one- they probably don't even meet those requirements either. We're getting triggered now. There are a few of us here right now. I need to take a break from talking about this problem now.

I could mention things in our inner world- but I'm very upset right now. Every time I [or one of the others] bring this stupid issue up, my blood feels like it is boiling, but yet I feel more sad than anything. I am so uncomfortable feeling right now. I feel like everything is a total mess right now {Both inner and outer world.} Majorly outer world- that is the number one issue currently- followed closely behind by inner world chaos.

I'm not even sure what this horrible feeling is called right now. It feels so bad.

-Re

the insurance thing sounds infuriating!!! what a friend did was to get her primary care physician to write the insurance company directly telling them to address future concerns to her.

littleDaria wrote:the insurance thing sounds infuriating!!! what a friend did was to get her primary care physician to write the insurance company directly telling them to address future concerns to her.

Thank you for your reply! We greatly appreciate it!

We actually did mention it to our primary doctor (because the insurance originally said we had to talk to them. Not sure why they told us that other than we've been having so many problems lately with our insurance not doing what they say they are/acting like they also have no clue what the others there said, plus getting hung up on how many times.)

Unfortunately, our primary doctor says there is nothing they can do, other than give us a letter saying we need to see this T. We did get a letter (it is a good one), but unfortunately it doesn't seem to faze our insurance (I don't know why they don't seem to care about the letter). They act like we can just go somewhere else, to see a different T. They don't understand us. We are super close to just changing insurance at this point. It's sad, we really liked this insurance UNTIL they pulled this garbage.

We are trying to appeal their decision, but at this rate, we don't even know what is going on. The insurance people act like they don't know what is going on, half the time we call them. UGH! Hopefully they got the appeal, and are working on it.

Hopefully they'll change their mind. It doesn't look like it though. If they don't, then we definitely are changing insurance companies.