How are you today thread (trigger warning)

What car did you buy? I just wanted to know because I have this thing about cars.

Making major decisions is a good test of how your system's doing. When we're not functioning right, even little decisions are hard. Major ones are impossible. Job, car, moving - you're really doing good these days.

Colin

Thanks everyone for the well wishes and comments...sadly the fine jewelry market has changed MASSIVELY since the last time I took my wife shopping for rings. So no luck finding a ring for my wife's defender, but one store is having a Le Vian event in January, and she's very excited to see if they have more options then. I'm sad to put off the engagement that long, but I affirmed I wanted her to be happy about whatever I buy her...

I feel extremely fourteen. the odd thing is that my current 14 year old alter is not ok with being an alter in a dissociative system. This is the first one I've met who has a problem with that.

I play all the songs I remember liking then, especially the ones I secretly liked, trying to make her feel welcome. Just not sure how to help her get used to her situation.

Oh and Sam I'm sure she appreciates the thoughtfulness. I would, certainly.

BeccaBee wrote:
well it wouldn't be a fire truck. just a big yellow truck.
Amarillo is yellow in spanish. and an armadillo is a tough armor plated kind of critter. so it would mean "yellow toughie". but rhyme and sound cool.

Amarillo Armadillo!

but i can't afford that.

Ooh! It is a cool rhyme. And makes loads of sense now, too. Thanks. I thought Amarillo was the name of a city in Texas. It's a shame you can't afford it, really. Still, a study little Kia sounds like a good alternative. You must feel very pleased.

birdsong, facial nerve pain? wtf?? that is awful! what's going on?

sam, best wishes with jewelry shopping. halloween to valentine's is prime time.

colin, I would be glad to talk about the car. I don't really feel like we are doing great because I am making all these changes.... but it really is for more time and less worry. my price point was 15 - 16k and I wanted new. I got a kia soul 1.6 because they wouldn't come off the price for 2.0 litre engine. I paid 16,156 + 900 in doc/tag/tax. I felt like this was a reasonable price. what irks me is the salesman said three times "don't tell anybody how much you got it for." and that just irritates me. cut the #######4 man. you didn't lose money on this sale. I did you a favor buying a damn car from you. I am not so stupid to think that's a good deal. it think it was a pretty typical price for the vehicle. it almost made me second guess the price him saying that. I just wanted to buy local so it was quick and easy. I spent a week car shopping and pulled the trigger yesterday. but I was internet shopping for about 6-8 months before I did test drives. car shopping is exhausting. I did a lot of the work over email.

I have driven enough beaters that I know when a transmission is about to crap out. and I wanted to trade while I still had value in the vehicle for a trade. now I have a new car under warranty, but a car payment. it felt really good to unload the vehicle without replacing the tires and brakes.

I think the peace of mind is worth it. I didn't like the anxiety of a break down with a child in the car, or waiting for transport. I put my last new car through hell with commuter miles, delivery driving for a year or two, and commuter miles again. this should last longer with my new easy lifestyle. a car payment is a predictable monthly expense. a breakdown is not.

i am not sure what is wrong with the face. today there was no pain.
the pain episodes meant that D was front more. its not that we found the courage to let her, more that the pain was so excruciating... D doesnt feel pain.
she has been active but in a very productive way.

today was a good day. with enough sleep and friends and many happy moments. i just forgot to eat again... Maya is still hiding from the pain and wasnt there to remind me. i really need her. i like it that we are all needed, little or big.

Hi All,

We have been really good for the last couple of days since Asile has been present in the front seat.

I can't remember how she got there/came back/what exactly happened but I'm really happy shes there. We all are

She's a true positive optimist & she's just so calm & happy all the time. The littles are getting a rest, especially Georgie our protector. She must trust Asile a lot.

Host got paid today so I'm going shopping soon. I LOVE shopping & I'm so glad host decided not to order online & is letting me go shopping! I have to make sure I don't go overboard & stick to the list. Asile has asked for a pretty skirt & I'm looking forward to finding one for her.

We are good today. Hope u guys are good.

Much love, Emma x

move to new apartment. run out of checks for bank account. order new ones.

misplace ATM card. use the other red one on accident. discover mistake when that account is overdrawn. oops. cannot find other bank card. call and get new one.

need money from account. go to window. explain that I need money from my account but don't have checks or card. oops. don't have ID either. it's in the baby purse because I took kid to drop in care while I did paperwork to buy car.

lady at bank window says, honey. nobody could make up a story like that. you just take it easy ok. let me get money from my account anyway. thanks nice bank lady.

I'm a hot mess anyway. but moving and car shopping g has really disrupted routines. I need a pajama weekend super bad!

Do the pyjama thing BeccaBee and don't forget to breathe.

We are in serious negotiation today. Having to make lists to make sure we do the stuff we are supposed to be doing. Also know we have to be focused for work later. So wish we had T right now. Unsure how much of this negotiation I can cope with alone. Trying to balance everyone's needs. Negotiating is my job but as I am out most of the time at the moment which is unusual for me so am finding it all pretty exhausting. Having said that it has made me less bossy and a little more understanding. The main issue is how to help M with her emotions at the moment without it swamping the system. The SO is maybe coming up at the weekend thinking maybe M might talk with her. Thank you kindly for listening. O