How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Once I had a friend called Clare. She was depressed for a long time. She is much better now. I am so very down right now. It is helpful to be able to write it somewhere. Because when the feelings are so overwhelming it is difficult to say anything to anyone. Even when you see them. I am not allowed to use my full name on her. But there is some liberation in saying I am M and I do exist.

LittleMie wrote:Once I had a friend called Clare. She was depressed for a long time. She is much better now. I am so very down right now. It is helpful to be able to write it somewhere. Because when the feelings are so overwhelming it is difficult to say anything to anyone. Even when you see them. I am not allowed to use my full name on her. But there is some liberation in saying I am M and I do exist.

Hello M.
I identify a lot with what you wrote. when so down, it is hard to say anything to anyone.
I am also so very down right now. But I hear you.I don't want to try to say things like "the sun will shine tomorrow".This is how things are right now. It is painful & difficult, but you're not alone.
I'd sit by you if you want me to.
~Leafy

samrk2 wrote:Going shopping today for a ring or other piece of jewelry to get engaged with my wife's defender! Keeping my fingers crossed that she won't be like my wife's host: it took us nearly 5 years to find an 'upgrade' wedding ring for her. And even if the stars align, the fates allow, G/god is good...the defender told me she probably still won't be ready to get married immediately...but 8 years into this healing journey I have learned to celebrate baby steps...here's wishing me/us luck after such a hard summer trying (and still not quite there) to get girl #8 completely adopted into the family...

glad to hear that.
this is huge. you are doing well. keep being patient.

birdsong87 wrote:glad to hear that.
this is huge. you are doing well. keep being patient.

thanks...it doesn't feel like we are doing well when girl #8 has a no touching rule and so I'm rarely allowed to touch any of them in any way right now...but trying to keep my eyes on the little victories and the end game when everyone will feel safe and be connected to each other...

still in a lot of pain.
probably the nerve in the face.
it feels like someone smashed cheekbone and eye socket.
this is pretty much unbearable. wondering if its time for A&E
just glad the kids are hiding.

Everybody's working on some really hard stuff. I just want to say I think you are all very brave.

Iain

Evan's totally confused about a YELLOW Fire Truck.

Lots of hugs to all.
Birdsong87 we sympathise, facial nerve pain is the worst. We've had it before and you just want it to GO AWAY. What is it, do you have an infection in there or why is it so painful? Sorry if you've said it before, the threads are so long and we've not looked back awfully much

Congrats to Sam!

That reminds me. My 8 year old alter, when she was still entirely separate (she's melting more and more into Minttu) she used to ask me, the Adult, if I'd adopt her so she could call me 'mommy'. I said I'd have to talk to T about it but then more pressing stuff came up and I forgot

Evan's totally confused about a yellow fire truck

Me, too, Evan, but I think it might be the armidillos that are yellow, maybe. But I've never seen an armidillo. In the pictures they are brown.

we did it!!

we bought a car!!

well it wouldn't be a fire truck. just a big yellow truck.
Amarillo is yellow in spanish. and an armadillo is a tough armor plated kind of critter. so it would mean "yellow toughie". but rhyme and sound cool.

Amarillo Armadillo!

but i can't afford that. so I got a kia. oh well.

still ♡♡♡warranty♡♡♡ and no worries about the transmission going out ♡♡♡

Currently trying to figure out what to do to prevent hantavirus.