How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Violarules wrote:Thanks Viki, I really appreciate hearing that. It's just that when I was little until about last year, I would have nighttime hallucinations. They've stopped and the doctors have chalked it up to that little kids that have big imaginations and that I've grown out of that. I don't believe that since the hallucinations have gone dormant before and then come back. I kinda feel like my neurologist isn't taking me seriously or maybe he's just confused since I had a sleep test come back as Narcolepsy, even though my symptoms don't match Narcolepsy at all. I have to make an appointment with him so I'll ask to be tested for a dissociative disorder and see what happens.

Have you seen a therapist? I feel like they would come from a more holistic view point as opposed to the medical side of things. They would look at you as a person, as opposed to a machine that has a physical ailment to be fixed. If your mum doesn't believe you about the DID maybe just say plainly to her that you are depressed and need to see someone? If she tries to make it out like you are exaggerating can you try and explain that it doesn't matter why you are that way, you just are and it needs attention? If she's difficult about it you could maybe try and see someone without going through her and get an expert to tell her what she won't believe from you?

Parents can be so difficult at times. They think they know best but they don't always. One silly example is that I hate gold, I always have, I never wear it and I have told my mum that heaps. For my birthday she bought me a gold necklace. I am thankful for the gesture and it is a nice necklace but she's known me 25 years now and 7 of them I have been an "adult" haha you'd think she'd know. Also, my mother in law bought me a hip flask and she knows I'm recovering from a drinking problem... Hahaha parents are weird..

-- Wed Jun 17, 2015 2:52 pm --

Feeling pretty worthless today.

Sick of bothering people with my problems.

Surely people think I'm crazy.

Can't calm anyone down.

I have been imprisoned for my aggressive behaviour.

No I haven't seen a therapist. I want to but have yet to do so.

Jay Jay and Raven integrated today. Raven will be the host again. The SO is afraid of change, is afraid of the change, even though he technically fell in love with Raven before he did Jay Jay. Doesn't make much sense to me but whatever.

Josi is doing better, but she's still pretty upset. Turns out after all the protecting of her we've done, she decided it was her turn to protect us. Silly little girl. She's so brave.

I am doing alright forgot my charger today, a few times a week trip to the library. After I thought about it, then I had someone erase the thought in my system. So my well being is good and stable despite the attempts to find run into them in passing folk that will make me go back on my 12 steps declarations. My motto as long as they ain't talking to me ain't much to get triggered about for us.! So far it is working and glad I'm keeping firm.


School is going well too, week 3 in my beginning behavioral research class.

I actually self disclosed at my school about Post Traumatic Stress disorder....Am keeping the rest personally, so for my school is accommodating and is very reassuring on my stress levels. They are waiting for me to provide a summary of what I might need help with. Thank God for that. A good feeling


Have a good day everyone.

things are rough. challenges with life. unrest inside. a "new" alter came up the day before yesterday. i had another seizure today and lost lots of time. ya, both of my Ts are on vacation. perfect timing for things to go down. feeling drained and discouraged.

I'm feeling pretty tired. My sleep cycle has been really messed up lately.

She's worried about the results of her upcoming MRI. The doctor suspects it'll come back normal, which Viola doesn't want since she felt asleep during the MRI despite all the noise and everything that was coming out of the machine. She really thinks there's something wrong with her and I guess just wants medical proof of it, so her family will believe since they don't.

Just finished my last exam!!!! Woo!!! Five weeks off! The list of things I have wanted to do for the last few months but couldn't is so long, where do I start??? Orange Is The New Black here I come!

I'm doing alright today! We all seem to be relatively alright, which is good. I'm especially excited I found these forums, it's good to see and interact with others like us.

had another seizure today. life sucks. Asti is missing. i so hope for her to return soon. we need her. outside life is standing still. could i please have another life? this one is broken

I am okay. Today has started off rough, but I remain hopeful things will get better before the night falls.