How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Violarules wrote: I've noticed that after thinking over an idea for the stories I'm writing, I feel drained, but I'm not sure why. Does anyone else experience this?

Not this exactly. However I really enjoy writing, or Sophie does, especially more adult level stuff, and I need to update my story also on the other forum, anyway. For me, having to read something boring usually drains me. Like reading a chapter for Government classes back in the day and I would be exhausted, my brain would simply shut down. And if I get headaches, my brain shuts down, I can't use correct words, or think of the words I am trying to use. Not like I go stupid, just not as quick witted and a fast talker.

BeccaBee wrote: I just need to REMEMBER that I'm fat so I can eat healthier.

Maybe you don't remember you are fat because you are not fat. I have no problem realizing I am never going to see the gainz if I keep eating junk food and not lifting weights, yet I get lazy and unmotivated so freaking easy. BLEEEHHH.

i dont feel utterly exhausted. its almost strange not to feel exhausted.
got blood work done, lacked B vitamins. no surprise, eating has been challenging.
its freaking me out how simple the solution was and i wish i had checked this earlier.
sometimes i get so used to everything being dissociation-related that i get blind for other possibilities.

I'm up way earlier than Host. I guess nobody understood what bringing a Protector close to front would be like. I get triggered so easy. Then I get angry and can't let it go. I pace around half the night. I just don't know what to do with myself.

Colin

IainEtc wrote: I pace around half the night. I just don't know what to do with myself.

Colin

Annett was like that last night. she picked up light dumbells and did endless reps of strength exercises, trying to improve her form. it needed enough focus to calm her down a little.
hope you can find some way to relax a little. entertaining anger can take so much strength.

Started clonazepam yesterday and it surpassed our expectations! We're taking it while we recover from some severe injuries and the pain is triggering panic and terror. We took a 0.5 last night and it calmed us down, but it also made most of our pain go away! I guess the stress we're under from our injuries is causing lots of muscle tension, and once that is relaxed the pain greatly reduced. Now our body should start healing, hopefully, without the stress getting in the way.

I feel better than I have all year. It's been 5 months since I could walk, and it's been hellish, but I actually feel present and like things are probably going to be okay maybe?

I had a real #####& of a day.

IainEtc wrote:I'm up way earlier than Host. I guess nobody understood what bringing a Protector close to front would be like. I get triggered so easy. Then I get angry and can't let it go. I pace around half the night. I just don't know what to do with myself.

Colin

Sounds familiar. Except it's Charity (or one or more kids near Charity) that get triggered and stay up. We end up exhausted every morning, and that sucks.

Laura and others

-- Fri Jul 01, 2016 6:25 pm --

I feel like whining. But the others with me don't like that.

I hate hormones. We're supposed to be done with this.

Charity

Moved into a new place a few days ago. Finally away from one of our abusers. Honestly this is one of the first times in our life where we feel abuse free. This could of course all come crashing down if our brother decides to move back home... which he might. We haven't been around him in a few years and it's very scary. We need to find a new therapist though... one who won't try and force integration. - Angel

Agitated. We get agitated when we sleep, and we wake up agitated far too often. It feels like it ruins our whole day. It feels like it's ruining our life.

A spaghetti tangle of MDs

I am Extremely Fuzzy. I know it's me that's out but I feel as if that could change at any moment.
I'm annoyed at another alter because she keeps flirting with random people and jepordising my relationship. It's her way of coping but every time any of us try to help her cope in other ways she verbally attacks us or hurts the body.
Additionally I'm attempting to complete coursework and finding myself not remembering any of the subject matter because of how dissociated I am both during lessons and now.
*deep sigh*
- jorgie