Society is now a hilarious misconfiguration
A completely misunderstood malcontentsion
It fails to see the basic fundamentals
Which harbor all of logic instrumentals
The creation of what we call common sense
Has left us in the lens
Waiting
As a photographer fails to capture the beauty
Of what we call a miscommunication
Indeed
If one were to take a picture of this world
The Death of Irony would be a fitting title.

"They are not chin hairs, I prefer to think of them as stray eyebrows"

Well, I am clearly in avoidant mode atm, have asked for my Occ Health appt to be over the phone, thing is it costs so much to get there. I know I am lucky to live in a country where there are benefits, otherwise I would be screwed, but they are not too much. Oh well, whine over. Whining = boring and stop it.

Cannot wait to get back to work tho it wont be for a while, which is frustrating. I wonder if I will have forgotten everything I knew and find myself mentally running through things in my head. Even stupid things like can I still put a venflon in? I hope so!

Well I hope everyone is having a good day and enjoying their blogs hehehe.

Cracked

Another blog on the same topic: Was I raped? I was in middle school, maybe 7th or 8th grade. My supposed friend took me to her neighbors house. He was older than me. As a joke they both wanted to see if I had any peach fuzz. My friend held me down while the guy pulled down my pants and underwear. There was no intercourse. I don't remember much after that. This has been etched in my brain since about 1982 or '83. Is there anything I can do about it or is it a moot point. Or, should I just forget about it?

Now I've gotten all those Journal entries in here.

At the moment I'm doin' pretty good. I've been reading a book lately. 'When Rabbit Howls" It's a really good book. A true story written by a woman with Multiple Personality Disorder. She has at least 90 different personalities, and they all pull together to write the story. Reading is really helping me get through things without being on the computer all the time. I feel less secluded when reading, since I can do it wherever I want instead of being stuck by an outlet.

Well, I got a call on Sunday from my fiance. He really wants to come home. They did a psyche evaluation on him and the woman told him that he was "egotistical to the point of delusion" ... not sure what exactly she was getting at. His response was, "Yeah, I knew I was awesome." It's made me wonder though, is there anything wrong with him mentally?? Maybe that's why he can put up with me. Haha. I can't wait for him to get home though. I miss him so much.

I miss his face so much right now. I hope I get a call from him tomorrow. What I hope more is that he tells me he's coming home. I will honestly cry if he tells me he's staying in boot camp voluntarily... I've not told him that, but it would tear me apart. I am just hoping that in his heart he feels the same as me... I don't want him to be taken from me... to be away from me for so long. My daughter has already grown so big in 2 months... He's missing so much... Please... please please let him be medically discharged so we can have that dream life I've pictured in my head for years.... Please...