My wife and I have been married for nine years and we have two young kids. We had a good life and we were happy, we thought a lot alike, we were a happy family.

Unbeknownst to me, about a year ago my wife began exhibiting delusional behavior. At that time she accused me of cheating on her. She believed I was with someone else while I was volunteering, even after she came and saw me where I was volunteering. After about a month of that accusation she decided to move on and continue life, until March first of this year.

This March she started making accusations accept it was worse then last time. She opened the flood gates on the accusations. This time she stated started by accusing me of cheating on her but it rapidly changed in to something much more bazaar.

She believes I am Gay and cheating on her with a guy that sends me a text on holidays along with everyone else in his phone list: Texts like marry Christmas or Happy Thanksgiving or Happy Halloween. She believes I am a pathological liar. She also believes that I may molest our children if I am alone with them for an extended period of time. That is the toughest one for me to take.

She believes that I am having someone follow her around, that I have spyware on her computer, that I have been filming her in the bedroom and in the living room. She went so far as to have the police come break apart the alarm clock because she believed there was a camera in the clock. She has put a GPS tracking device in my car to see here I am going.

We have both had physiological evaluations mine came out normal hers diagnosed her with dilutional disorder with, paranoia, and depression. We had individual meetings then a meeting with the psychologist (should have went to a psychiatrist, psychologist can not prescribe medications) together to discuses our results. She still refuses to accept the diagnoses of the psychologist, in fact she doesn’t remember that the psychologist said she has paranoia or delusional disorder, like the psychologist never said she had those issues.

I am grateful she believes I am gay, it has allowed me to stay in the house with my kids. She does still care about me; she keeps tying to unrelentlessly get me to come-out to make my life better. I still can see without any change my marriage will end. I am beginning to loose hope.

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I'm really confused here about all of this and I can't talk to my parents because I know they will say something to make me feel bad, but lately, about a year or so I've been finding myself doing really weird things. Like, before I take a shower, (which is always at night) I'll turn the lights off and look out the window to see if anyone of there, and if I can't see the trees outside on the REALLY dark nights, I'll climb half way out the window to make sure. I never get fully naked no matter WHERE I am unless it's in my closet and I still check behind my clothes. I've snapped at my boyfriend for hanging out with a female "friend" and he's still really mad at me. When I'm out with my friends and they tell me things that, ya know, friends should keep as secrets I hear things inside my ear thats like "Amanda! Brook! Willow! What are you doing, don't listen!" and I'll mostly hear my name whispered. It's really FREAKING creepy!!! You don't even know!
Another thing I do, is I always have my lights on and I look over my shoulder to make sure that my closet is closed and a monster didn't pop out. Yes, I said a monster. This is gonna sound WEIRD bit my biggest fear is to open my eyes one might and see it open with a bunny rabit thing in there with really sharp teeth. It was a story I made up, but what of it comes real?
I'm afraid of the dark because I feel like something will grab me and pull me under the bed and eat me or something. I don't know. I talked to one of my friend and she told me about paranoid schizophrenia so o looked it up and flipped out!
If you could get back to me, it would be great. I want to know of their is potentially something wrong before I go and risk talking to my parents about it.

I almost got t-boned in my car today. Some lady was talking on her cell phone, oblivious to what was going on around her. I was at a three-way interesection and the light turned green. As I started moving out, so did the lady with the cell phone, who was stopped at the red light. She kept right on going, oblivious that the light was red.

I have noticed the past year or so the problem has become worse. You can usually tell who is talking on their cellphone because they weave in and out of their lane and are usually going 20mph slower than anyone else while they are in the fast lane.

Please. Put down the cell phone and drive !!!

Arghhhhh

I'm terrified right now.

I was invited to a party a few eeks ago and tonight is the night.

I haven't been around in 'people' in so long (without my kids) and now that I'm in this process of change I'm affraid of what I'm gonna do and if I'll be able to handle it.

I went out to to a Pub last light with a new friend I met online; but that was different because we share mental illness in common (something thatbrought us together actually) and we could talk openly about our nervousness being in public and our issues, etc... I didn't feel like I had to fit in and confrom; but tonight is different and I'm scared

I don't really want to go- but I'm supposed to get and meet people (as per my therapist) so I'm trying to force myself to go
Ugh!

I really just wanna crawl in bed and forget it- this is so fu*king HARD to go out around people- I don't like it at all grr........

I hate this
FML