It appears for whatever reason the anger has shifted from being angry with others to being angry with myself. This morning while everyone was asleep I had a bout of anger but it wasn't really directed at anyone in particular. I suppose I felt angry with myself because of the situations I have put myself in. Somehow I always find a trigger and it festers inside me and allows the angry and depression to grow to full force. I'm far from being stupid and can usually recognize my triggers and stay away from them but sometimes I allow myself to fall in the anger and depression vortex. I don't know why I do it. I think it's because sometimes I want to be the old April who relished the anger, drama, apathy and sadness that ruled my life. My old life wasn't simpler and it was far more painful but sometimes there's that old feeling that I would like to return to it. I don't particularly understand why I feel this way but sometimes I do. The feeling doesn't come often, I mean once in a blue moon if that, but it does come at the most random moments.

For the most part I've had a good day and I plan to continue the evening with positive feelings instead of negative ones. Other than the bout of anger this morning things have been going pretty good. No reason to bitch.

I realize this is a short entry but I simply have nothing important to say. I bid everyone a good evening.