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by **quietgirl2538** on Tue Jul 01, 2014 1:39 am

I'm feeling better with my anger issues. I feel calmer. Although I still get riled up, it's not instantaneously most times. I was ready to call the doctor and get some meds for that, but I put it off and unless it returns the same I'll wait. I am getting into a routine with summer here. Things are ok.

by **quietgirl2538** on Mon Jun 23, 2014 1:48 pm

Right now I hate everyone in my life. I want to be left alone until I feel better. If I ever feel at peace again.

by **quietgirl2538** on Sun May 25, 2014 7:42 pm

I shared to my cleaning lady that I have bipolar. She only speaks Spanish but I've hired her for near 8 years and usually when I need her on extra days it's because I'm so depressed I need the house looking better. The humongous mess overwhelms me. I also have ADD. I printed a set of explanation from a Spanish website. I said ok, this is why I am constantly sick I have bipolar. She said bipolar is for the rich in Mexico. I laughed so the poor people don't get bipolar. lol. It's because whoever suffers from bipolar and can't get medical treatment don't ever get it. She read the symptoms and I was glad she knew that it wasn't that I was lazy become at times my house would be spotless. I would clean and disinfect, clean baseboards. Wipe everything down and organize. Then I would have an episode and it would fall apart and it would stay that way for a month. Laundry everywhere, dirty laundry on the floor. Etc. I am embarrassed to share more details. That is why I used to hire her every week because she kept my house looking clean for my friends and my kid's friends. My kid's weren't embarrassed by the messy house. She is one of those cleaning ladies that even washes your clothes and folds them and even puts them away, since I've had her for so long she already knew where everything was. So that is how I have coped with this issue for 8 years. Before that, I struggled a lot. I know it's expensive to have some "help" but it is money that is available and it is a "need" with me and my illness.

by **quietgirl2538** on Thu May 22, 2014 3:34 pm

I am feeling superb! I'm not manic and I'm also not al all depressed. Still enjoying life. When that changes I'll feel strong and experienced enough to handle it well. I want to live, I really do. Tears still follow when I look back to when I felt opposite this. Very sad. But no worries, I feel too good to dwell on that. Ok, now am I doing that bipolar thing where I feel so good and then instantly I am in tears. If I am then it fits me. I am bipolar...And Proud of it too. But I won't share it with anyone.

by **quietgirl2538** on Wed May 14, 2014 7:51 am

Had a small argument with my dh (dear husband). I turned over all paying of the bills to him. I am tired of screwing up all the time with overspending. I don't want to lie anymore about spending. I need help with this spending thing. At one moment I enjoy the spending and buying things. Feeling good about having money then I feel guilty because now how much do I have for groceries. Terrible feelings. Feeling good, then feeling bad.

Update on my anger issues

Needing my space

Shared my official bipolar diagnosis

How I'm feeling after being on Lithium for a month

Overspending

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