hi i have suffered from pocd for a year and a half, he other night i had an intrusive thought of a boys genitals and in order to confront the thought i rolled my tongue pretending to suck it, just to face the thought, since then i have been worrying that i am perverted cuz i pretended to suck it, i only did this to face my fear and prove to myself that thoughts arnt real and if i pretend to do something it doesnt actually mean i have done it, because i dont want to be afraid anymore. The intrusive thought was so horrible but i tryed to embrace it and not be afraid of it, cuz i know anxiety is what keeps it to returning. Do you think i did the right thing by rolling my tongue, i know this doesnt mean anything at all but in my head somehow it does, makes me feel like i acted really innapropriately. For example if i get the thought to spank some1 and i spank the air cuz i dont want to be afraid of moving my arm i think to my self that somehow that was wrong to spank the air because of the thought i was having at the time.