So on Saturday I woke up and was super depressed. Tired of the city I live in, the only people I hang out with here are my family. It's sad considering I grew up here... but it's my own fault, I can't stand hanging out with people I don't like. I hate having pointless conversations and I hate hearing about drama and all that. It would just be so much better if I had my own car because then I could go to lakes and go swimming alone, but since I don't, I have to rely on other people.

So I went on a walk to the usual place I go on a walk, got high, enjoyed nature. Fell asleep that night mad early. On Sunday I just helped my dad around the house. got high lol. Monday was a whatever day and so is today so far. Besides the fact that I'm paranoid that I have HIV, I'm ok. I need to stop worrying about that...I need to go get tested, its been almost 3 years it's getting ridiculous.

Anyways, I'm contemplating moving far away because my aunt said I can live with her and I want to see my mom before she dies. My dad makes me not want to because I have a job here and I know that I logically shouldn't quit it to move away but....I barely get paid anything and it's not like I have a future in this company and I'm only 22....I feel like I need something new. I shouldn't be this sad and bored at 22...so I'm going to move, I have some money saved anyways. I just need to get my sh*t together.

That seems to be a trend for me lol...always pushing things off....well that's about all I have to say for today.