I need to start writing down how I feel as soon as I can because when I get happy I forget about how I felt earlier.

So, this morning I woke up, saw my face actually thought it was a nice shape, then I saw a picture of a pretty girl and felt horrible. Felt like dying. Then on my way to work I saw a pretty girl and I felt like dying even moreso. Then I got f***king so mad I wanted to kill someone and then as usual my extreme anger which never lasts long goes back into my deep sadness. And then I got so sad I had to cry so I shed a few tears on the bus and now I feel better.(and its only 10 am) and I've been doing well the past while