ok, so ive kind of had it in my head that i try and hold on to negative emotions so that at least im in control of what im feeling...i didnt think i did it with positive emotions...but i do

Thank makes me feel better knowing this...coz i thought i was keeping myself unwell when i feel unwell, and that makes me really mad with myself...but i dont...well i do, but know i know that this also goes for positive feelings...

Yey, now i can see that i dont WANT to feel bad, it just i need to feel stong emotions...to make me feel existable.