Sometimes i wish i had a crystal ball that could give me all the answers.
Sometimes life can be so confusing...

A few weeks ago i had a conversation with my sister on the phone. I called her because i had some important information and i couldn`t leave her out of it...

I hadn`t talked to her for a year and we haven`t got any contact with each other because we have so many problems.
I was struck by emotions when i heard her voice on the phone and i told her that i had missed her. Sometimes she can be a good shoulder to lean against but that feeling doesn`t last long until we have problems again, so that is why i have said that i didn`t want to have any contact with her. She can suddenly turn against me and this is not a good thing.

I miss the good times we had.
Although those times were over shadowed with problems, i always have a hope as i know she does too.

Yet realistically i know now that this is not going to happen....

So we started to talk on the phone, she didn`t hang up and i told her i had some important information about our family. She listened and then she started to talk about my supposed affair with our stepfather.

She lied.

I told her that i would back up her up if she came clean about the lie, but that didn`t change her aggressive mind...

Before that (the lie conversation was the last thing we talked about in the long phone conversation).

So before that she told me something else..

She said that our father (real father), had said something to her for a long time ago that she didn`t understand....

He said that he had done something to my sister (possibly when she was a child?9 and that if she knew what that horrible thing was then she wouldn`t want to have contact with him any more.

My sister don`t normally lie.

She told me that she had vague memories of someone standing over her bed as a child and that that person had brown eyes--------

Yet she wasn`t sure.

And neither am i.

I feel disturbed enough as it is.

I just listened not much else i can do.

Then after the lie conversation, after she was aggressive and yelling to me on the phone because i said it wasn`t true, then she hung up and wrote me a txt message. She was provoked because i had charged her for tagging my door and stalking me.
So even if the case was dismissed after a short hospital visit, she wanted me to withdraw the charges. She said if i wanted to see her i had to withdraw the charges because she was deemed as "unfit for the charges" or unreliable as they say here.