I'm in Limbo Land; What does this mean; its a kind of maturational process from being the other broken mentally ill self; the victim self; the specific person of jagged colored personalities created by the negatives and fear horror of the past; I'm going from those people; being walked or driven or flown by the universe until I'm not those people anymore; I've been slowly lifted from those lives and moved with some momentum; slow momentum to a point that my focus is on god and the universe and what is happening in front of me; so much so that I've been traveled to a new place and I don't remember anything of that other world; I don't have to and I don't want to; I've moved on into something that is preparing me for something completely new.
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I'm now practicing in this safe vortex of the holy spirit. its a changing room. I'm being morphed into something completely new.
I'm fare away from what others call the past; almost to a point that its way gone beyond just being out of sight out of mind; Its way way way out of mind. I've traveled many many miles; so many I don't remember what happened. I've been God grown in a special incubator; I was replanted from; like a seed of self; and grown. This was done while at the end of the last segment of that last life of hell;
the last breaths of that dead well; before that; much before that; I learned on that death planet to do as much as I could; and I escaped and found recovery on that death planet; And then paradigm shifts; God came and took me away from that planet of cruel death. And now I am becoming that seed that turned into a plant and grew into a small tree and is now being transformed from God Universe planetarium where I was re created into a human; I'm now in the vortex zone where I'm being transformed into a human again but this time my mother and father are the vortex; the holy spirit; The universe and God and I have no need or memory of anything else. Its not necessary; I do not look back to the death planet to get feed or identify; its all history; its just dead history of another time and place.
Does anyone remember what happened at the turn of the 19th century; Lets say the 1890's or 1901? Probably not; Its to fare away; its so fare away; its history; its only in history books; no present modern person is connected to such abstract distant things. In a sense; its all closed dead history. And in many cases for most maybe; a closed history. Something not thought of ever again. Its dead history. And its much more then that; I was not dislocated from that history; I mean: I had dislocated myself from it while on the same planet millenniums ago. I had already fought the good fight and walk away from or ran as fast as possible away from the trauma horror; from the center of pure evil. I ran from that into recovery.
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Then something happened; I was so fare away and had gotten as fare as I could; God rescued me to another world; another world of planets in a different time and space.
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I am now a new creature in the vortex interim learning how to walk and learning how to read and learning how to use my arms and learning how to see and communicate again. I have no history; nothing; but I am always aware of what happened.
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Its like I remember that I was in a car wreck; but I was so young and had amnesia; I remember the pain and that I went through it; but it is so long and distant. Its as if I was pulled from one life into another. Like I was reborn literally into a complete other humanoid from the ground up. However, from the background I came from. I am new but I'm old as well. But I'm not. I'm bran new. and I have no history. I have only the experiences of slowly working with God as I wake up again from a strange sleep into a new world.
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The old memories I have of some of the players of the past; they are just old memories of ancient stage coach robbers. They are ancient history that I do not...

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