So yeah just now I had a realisation that...

Some other stuff has happened by the way today wich I won't talk about... but uhm...

I found out about some more stuff... or well additional information... not in the sense of memories or something...

And uhm yeah it made me realise more... of myself... something more.

And just a few minutes ago I uhm... realised I might actually just have to go pick up my life where I have left it. Because it has all come to a halt right now and I've got a lot of time left over to keep thinking about certain stuff. But uhm... that's all right now. Thinking.

And uhm. Though it is paying off. It's paying off. All the thinking might actually get me somewhere.

And especially when I now get thoughts of picking up school again etc... wich I have postponed so far...