Been awhile since Ive been here! Ive dumped everything on FB; 10 blogs a day! Those people know more about me then my therapist! I don't care either!

So, Im 10 years old, and I do not know there is a problem! I have my plans and my future and my secure life! Then the women whom owns this house sells it and leaves! Comes in one day and tells me she's selling the house! Cold and satanic like! No remorse! My father has left earlier! He's never coming back! I have no one to talk care of me! And she is a sadistic psychopath!

What was I thinking or feeling before this! What plans did I have for the future! What was I looking forward to! These are the questions I have to get in touch with! I must get in touch with those feelings and memories once again! The goal is to kick start my life again from that point just before the disaster struck!

What was I planning on! What did I think I was going to get help with! What were my goals!

Im interested in being that person again! Mending the break is not the issue! Reconnection and becoming that person again; with the knowledge that Im not in my original home and never will be again; thats the issue!

The biggest problem has been; I cant go home! That has to change! Somehow God has to help me believe Im home! Its very hard and sickening to deal with! Im not sure how he's going to pull it off! I have to keep praying to him!

This venture has to do with age 10; being broken at age 10; losing my home at age 10; losing my mother n father at age 10! Losing my schooling at age 10! Losing the neighborhood at age 10; losing my dreams at age 10! Losing my best friend at Age 10! Losing my city at age 10.