And Im starting to see it!

Those from the past!

As I get better, Im seeing what I blocked off! Im seeing Satan! Im seeing the devil! Im seeing the devil in my best friend and his family! No ######6 wonder God was humorous about the whole thing! He was laughing at me or with me! He was trying to explain to me; " I do not know those people, they are not in my book of life"! I did not understand how this could be! Now I know! As I get better, and better within his realm; now I see it!

Ive seen psychopaths like wolves within the meetings I attend! And I see it! The family system I thought were my friends! They are the same way! They are like wolves with fangs! All animals! All animal, no human! Nothing human! Complete demonic!

And I see different forms of Satan in many people that have approached me! Or that I have approached!


It's my job to figure out what really happened when I was young! It's no game! I was genicided out of my life very young! It was deliberate! It's my job to look at it; figure it out, fix what I can and move on!

The idea is to get my life back and let go of those from the past! Im not a sociopath! So it's not easy for me! Im a sensitive human being! It makes things impossible!

You have to keep working at this; over n over n over!

Its about my addiction to mom and dad! To my mom and dad! A child wants to feel proud of something! All they have is their mom and dad! Take that away, and they are crushed!

And I was crushed! Now Im looking for solutions to be uncrushed!

Im slowly working on this! It's slowly happening! When and as I work through the issues with my mother and father, all other issues get better!

Im still living a double life and have not began to change!

I attract women; my fair share; but I cant feel comfortable with them until I can tell them the truth!~
I live in an apartment and don't have much in the way of money! I certainly don't tell them bluntly at the top! However, its about being afraid to approach them because of my economic insecurities

Live learned that I have to quit living a double life and learn to tell people the truth!

And thats where Im headed!