Really? That's what he's going with?
Like myself, Michael is an alcoholic and a drug addict in recovery. He is coming up on 18 months of sobriety, but he's one of those rounder types. You know those people who go around saying they have a year after they hit the ten-month mark? He's been saying he has 18 months for the past two. Side note: having a certain amount of sobriety doesn't mean that you've changed, grown, or done any work on yourself whatsoever. All that means is that you haven't picked up a drink or a drug. Let's just get that out there right now.
He's very selfish, and now that I've started graduate school (in the field of psychology) he is upset that I don't have as much time for him. He also is not formally educated in any way and I'm pretty sure that that insecurity plays a part in this. I basically broke up with me because he isn't getting enough attention. I, of course, did not react well, and his response was to call me a crazy bipolar b*tch. Whys is that okay? Why is mental illness considered to be an acceptable form of ammunition? I've had bipolar disorder thrown in my face my entire adult life, and it hurts every time. Every. Single. Time. If you truly love someone, how could you possible use their pain against them, as if it was a choice to become mentally ill? (On top of it, there's this PTSD crap I'm trying to work through, and he's woefully insensitive to that issue as well.) Where do I find these jackasses? I want to just be loved in entirety, for who I am, good and bad. It's hard enough to open up about my mental illness, and these types of incidents are the reason why. At Dual Diagnosis Anonymous today the reading and discussion was about who to share your condition with and when it's safe to do so. I'm a very open and gregarious person, so I used to tell EVERYONE that I was type one br they hit the ten-month mark? He's been saying he was 18 months for the past two. Side note: having a certaiever. All that means is that you haven't picked up a drink or a drug. Let's just get that out there.
He's very selfish, and now that I've started graduate school (in the field of psychology) he is upset that I don't have as much time for him. He also is not formally educated in any way and I'm pretty sure that that insecurity plays a part in this. I basically broke up with me because he isn't getting enough attention. I, of course, did not react well, and his response was to call me a crazy bipolar b*tch. Whys is that okay? Why is mental illness considered to be an acceptable form of ammunition? I've had bipolar disorder thrown in my face my entire adult life, and it hurts every time. Every. Single. Time. If you truly love someone, how could you possible use their pain against them, as if it was a choice to become mentally ill? (On top of it, there's this PTSD crap I'm trying to work through, and he's woefully insensitive to that issue as well.) Where do I find these jackasses? I want to just be loved in entirety, for who I am, good and bad. It's hard enough to open up about my mental illness, and these types of incidents are the reason why. At Dual Diagnosis Anonymous today the reading and discussion was about who to share your condition with and when it's safe to do so. I'm a very open and gregarious person, so I used to tell EVERYONE that I was type one bipolar. This was before I was aware of the sordid social stigma behind it. Society is more accepting of alcoholism than mental illness, and I wonder how long it will take for that to change. AA has been around since 1939, and I get that. I just want all of us to be treated like humans regardless of which disorder we have. I didn't drink, use, or cut after the Michael incident. I guess that's progress, right?