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"You're a crazy bipolar b*tch!"--the boyfriend by RunawayFaye on Sun Oct 05, 2014 3:49 am
Really? That's what he's going with?

Like myself, Michael is an alcoholic and a drug addict in recovery. He is coming up on 18 months of sobriety, but he's one of those rounder types. You know those people who go around saying they have a year after they hit the ten-month mark? He's been saying he has 18 months for the past two. Side note: having a certain amount of sobriety doesn't mean that you've changed, grown, or done any work on yourself whatsoever. All that means is that you haven't picked up a drink or a drug. Let's just get that out there right now.

He's very selfish, and now that I've started graduate school (in the field of psychology) he is upset that I don't have as much time for him. He also is not formally educated in any way and I'm pretty sure that that insecurity plays a part in this. I basically broke up with me because he isn't getting enough attention. I, of course, did not react well, and his response was to call me a crazy bipolar b*tch. Whys is that okay? Why is mental illness considered to be an acceptable form of ammunition? I've had bipolar disorder thrown in my face my entire adult life, and it hurts every time. Every. Single. Time. If you truly love someone, how could you possible use their pain against them, as if it was a choice to become mentally ill? (On top of it, there's this PTSD crap I'm trying to work through, and he's woefully insensitive to that issue as well.) Where do I find these jackasses? I want to just be loved in entirety, for who I am, good and bad. It's hard enough to open up about my mental illness, and these types of incidents are the reason why. At Dual Diagnosis Anonymous today the reading and discussion was about who to share your condition with and when it's safe to do so. I'm a very open and gregarious person, so I used to tell EVERYONE that I was type one br they hit the ten-month mark? He's been saying he was 18 months for the past two. Side note: having a certaiever. All that means is that you haven't picked up a drink or a drug. Let's just get that out there.

He's very selfish, and now that I've started graduate school (in the field of psychology) he is upset that I don't have as much time for him. He also is not formally educated in any way and I'm pretty sure that that insecurity plays a part in this. I basically broke up with me because he isn't getting enough attention. I, of course, did not react well, and his response was to call me a crazy bipolar b*tch. Whys is that okay? Why is mental illness considered to be an acceptable form of ammunition? I've had bipolar disorder thrown in my face my entire adult life, and it hurts every time. Every. Single. Time. If you truly love someone, how could you possible use their pain against them, as if it was a choice to become mentally ill? (On top of it, there's this PTSD crap I'm trying to work through, and he's woefully insensitive to that issue as well.) Where do I find these jackasses? I want to just be loved in entirety, for who I am, good and bad. It's hard enough to open up about my mental illness, and these types of incidents are the reason why. At Dual Diagnosis Anonymous today the reading and discussion was about who to share your condition with and when it's safe to do so. I'm a very open and gregarious person, so I used to tell EVERYONE that I was type one bipolar. This was before I was aware of the sordid social stigma behind it. Society is more accepting of alcoholism than mental illness, and I wonder how long it will take for that to change. AA has been around since 1939, and I get that. I just want all of us to be treated like humans regardless of which disorder we have. I didn't drink, use, or cut after the Michael incident. I guess that's progress, right?

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Goals; update by OMNICELL on Sat Jun 28, 2025 10:14 am
Goals; update;
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The goal is a drum room; Ill keep looking into it…
Drumming everyday until its all I want to do all day long
Soulmate; All I can see; things are maybe looking; The door is opening; ...

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Relational development; It is beginning to form; by OMNICELL on Mon Jun 23, 2025 2:15 am
Relational development; It is beginning to form;
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Soulmate;
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Ill assume Im completely dating someone We are together… I will assume we ...

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To finally push a man away because I want to by quietgirl2538 on Fri Jun 20, 2025 10:58 am
Still single. Lol. By choice.

This guy who is hanging around seems like a good person. That's all good and everything. But I have moved on from any romantic feelings for him. I cared for him at one...

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played my song live first time ever... by OMNICELL on Tue Jun 17, 2025 9:20 pm
Ive been working toward this while mentally ill for half my life and its taken that long for this one moment to occur.
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Played the piano at the church lunch in for the poor drugged out homeless population… ...

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Making new friends for life by OMNICELL on Wed Jun 11, 2025 11:02 pm
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Re: played my song live first time ever... by Snaga on Sun Jun 22, 2025 8:43 pm
Well congratulations! I know I would never have been able to do anything like that, that's really great!

Re: Next blog…. In the realm of things...; The Change.. by Snaga on Wed Jan 01, 2025 11:06 pm
Happy New Year, Omnicell! Another year of making progress!

Re: test by Snaga on Sun Oct 13, 2024 1:34 am
The blogs are a little different from the open forum- here, moderator preview is a constant, unlike the open forum. It's the same case with the official journals forum. I see you're a DID forum user,...

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Re: Made a decision by NewSunRising on Wed Jun 14, 2023 12:14 pm
but not alone ... We are here for you if ever you need us . Hugs & love .

Re: Being gracious by quietgirl2538 on Mon Jun 05, 2023 4:45 am
I agree

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