Badly. Truly and royally pissed.

It's Q weekend on STO this weekend (it's a game, on Q weekend you get double the reward for everything) and I may just get pissed then and play like mad all night.

Yeah,.. dry cider followed by scotch is sounding really good right about now...

Mmm...

I'm tired at the moment but fear sleep, as I fear I'll wake to having my estate agent or landlord invading my home. This is what the unexpected inspection, chastisement and having to pay for apparent 'damage' to the carpet which I know I did not cause. I'm paying for it though. I feel they'll find one more thing wrong and I'll be without a home. Tenant rights kinda suck here. I'm not even certain that they have to give me a 30day notice,.. it's possible they could say "leave in 5 days." This is really screwing with my head. I'm going to have to go and pick up around the place now; not that there's anything wrong with it.

I've been sleeping very uncomfortably on my sofa in the living room so as not to be as 'surprised' when someone unexpectedly walks through my door with the keys they hold to MY home. I love the weekends, as it means there's no chance of that happening. Really, I don't think there's chance of that happening as they have to give me some notice before visiting but I don't trust them.

My ex and I got booted out of a flat here while in the middle of a 6mo lease simply as the owners wanted to sell the place. Ho-hum. That should not be allowed to occur. If one can get forced out of their flat here at the landlords whim when they've got a lease, why shouldn't I be concerned? Especially with the landlords annoyance of me not being able to make payments right on schedule due to no fault of my own.

Recently, the landlords have had 'valuers' coming by. Generally, that's done when the owners are trying to work out how much they can sell their property for! Whether I'll get a new landlord which will likely involve a new estate agency to deal with, or whether I'll be able to stay up until the end of my lease is --going by the past-- by no means certain.

I want to get out of here. This state, that is. This stress is killing me.