So things are rubbish at the moment....

I've not left my room for weeks, my eating habits are ridiculous, and I'm binging and purging so much that my mouth feels like it's burning.

On top of that my mum has been taken into hospital and has had surgery, so when all I want to do is slumo and sleep I'm going to have to face the world and visit her... and take her cat to the vet, and take my gran to the eye hospital. A hectic day is not the ideal scenario in which to drag myself back into the world and out of the dark cave I've put myself in. I was fine in my cave.

Plus my girlfriend is flirting with a lad on facebook.

Oh and I had to see my father for the first time in years last week... surpirse brunch, thanks bro. Which kinda caused all this; doctors med-ing me up. Now the "side effects of depression" which they think are being caused by the pills means they want to put me on beta blockers. whole thing is making me feel like a freak.

That is a whole lot to deal with! I am sorry you are going through this.

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