So i just admitted to myself that i am bipolar(probably mixed episode)...have been for years, but didn't know it. I was sorta diagnosed about 6 months ago and given medication (lamictal, lexapro and hydroxyz HCl), which was effective until i stopped taking the medication due to stigmas and the fact that i found the answers i'd been looking for, after i destroyed my life...really destroyed my life...and didn't see the point in working my butt ...