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I'm kind of raging here. This day's been horrible. Nothing has seemed to go right. Everyone's getting in my damn way. Family is pissing me off. I can't speak my mind to them, I'd definitely just make the situation worse. Debating on quitting therapy. My therapist didn't call me like he said he would. He's an ass anyways. I would find a new one, but money's tight. I need to get the hell out of ...

My therapist treats me like a BPD patient. I feel like I do have BPD, but she's hesitant about diagnosing me. Whether that's because it's a controversial diagnosis or because she doesn't want that diagnostic label looming over my head, it's still irritating. From everything I've read, DBT was created by a borderline for borderlines. If she says I'm majorly depressed, I'll take her. meds. If she says I have severe anxiety, I'll take her ...

I am a 23 year old female. After therapy on and off from the age of 5, never knowing what was wrong with me and my life gradually becoming more of a trainwreck during adolesence, at 18 I was finally diagnosed with BPD.
I'll never forget that day, it was so hard to take in - that I had a personality disorder..why me?! It also made sense though and when I read up about it, ...

So, I guess what I'm trying to say is, I push people away when I don't feel...I don't know, first? I've been left with no friends because of it, and it's killing me. I'm always WAY too needy. Not to mention the splitting. I don't really "blow up" so to speak, I just shut down / cut off contact to see if they will come after me. Of course they never do. Not really sure ...

I've been friends with my best friend for years, and admittedly, I've been horrible. I can't stand it when she talks about other friends and I blow up when I have a feeling that I don't come first for her. I don't want her to talk about certain subjects, such as superheroes, because I can't stand them.
I'm needy towards her, texting and e-mailing her all the time when she's not there. Sometimes it even ...

I know I could look it up but I think it best explained coming from people here. I read posts from people discussing self validation. What exactly does that mean. I have an idea but how do you go about it is what I think I am asking.

Is it finding your own self worth/contentment and happiness so that you are not constantly looking outside of yourself for it from others.

Is it being less ...

Think I may have replaced cutting with throwing up? Can't eat anything without throwing up! My burns are still there but needed something else. Thik I'm not good not sure? But just wonder if anyone else can help me? Therapist appointment next tuesday but not good....

Has anyone ever had verbal attacks or torn through people in a raging tornado or lashed back and overreacted to people who say something against you or cut you off as being a friend .... or because your perception is different at the time you see them as bad or against you and have a verbal attack that is really horrible, nasty etc and then been so guilty and distressed or embarrassed, ashamed about it ...

but my stupid boyfriend is pissing me off. He doesn't like playing competitive games with me because I'm not as competitive as he is. At the same time he wants us to be interested in the same things. I got a game that he has been into lately and I want to play it with him. He won't even play one game with me. We get into a big fight about it last night because ...

I don't know how to "be" around people.

I cannot figure them out. I can't read them. I cannot feel at ease around them.

I can't gauge their tone of voice or the expressions on their faces. I have an especially hard time deciphering sarcastic comments.

If I overhear people talking about someone, I start to assume it's about me.

I get such intense feelings of others judging me, I lose my own train of ...