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Im wondering, yet again, if Im borderline. I don't have all of the symptoms but I have many of them:

Black & white thinking: My bf says I have this, and had this ias a teen. Our relationship has been a roller coaster to some extant. I swung from loving him and wanting to be with him to being annoyed or angry and wanting to break up. I did this for months. Also did this ...

i've known i haven't been quite right for about 5 years, been misdiagnosed a lot. now i've got a new label but for the first time in my life it fits.

but i don't seem to be getting anywhere with it. had a lot of different therapy but nothing helps and just being told to stop behaving the way i do or being told to be mindful when the rage is taking over doesn't help. ...

I am triggered by a call from my ex. I've been in a very stressful space due to finances anyways.

He was the love of my life even though he was a Narcissist. We had the emotional, physical,
mental and spiritual connection. I have never had the total connection before. I was separated from my husband when we were together. I knew that his lack of empathy, his immaturity and his inability to respond to ...

Dear Community,
I have an extensive email to share with you about my undiagnosed battle with BPD that caused me to break up with the love of my life. I sent her this letter to break up with her:

I broke up with her 2 months ago. Here was my reasoning:
In my ultimate battle to not be alone, I selfishly stayed with her in hopes that my feelings of differing personalities, would change. I ...

I want to word this delicately because I do not have intent, but I am having suicidal feelings. I want that clear. I do not consider this a crisis. It is extremely unlikely I will go through with it.

But I could really use someone to talk to if anyone is willing. Just want to give up and stop trying. I feel like I have no way out of these problems and I feel backed ...

I've heard this saying in the past two days from two completely different people. It has me thinking a lot. It started when I told my therapist how a lot of what I do is just push through everything even though it sucks. She was trying to help me see that perhaps there is something better than just pushing through. Is just pushing through the life I feel is worth living? and if not, what ...

My life is a mistake
I was born to fix a problem and instead I became one
I am a continuation of bad decisions
Nothing around me was meant to be
It shows in the blurry wedding photos
The love of my mother is for herself
It showed in the way she left us to be in her darkness
The love of my father is a lie
It showed in the back of his fist ...

my boyfriend is gone for a few weeks to visit his family in another state.

i dropped him off last night at the airport and as i drove off, i felt VERY empty. i didn't think it'd hit me so fast. since last night I've been complete bored and totally feeling like there is nothing. nothing nothing nothing.

everything seems so ... blah and dull. full of boredom and emptiness.

It makes me realize how ...

Ok, I don't know if this is allowed on this forum? But I am a non-BPD (haven't been diagnosed but I do think I show some of the symptoms..) but I would still like some help. I AM going to talk to a shrink as well as friends who might be able to help but I want to know if BPDs could share some insight..?

Basically these last four months I have been very sexually ...

I am having a really hard time staying centered over the past 24 hours. My Borderline rage is
surfacing, I am binging, thinking negative thoughts and I am listening to the part of my mind
that wants to be a victim. I am breathing and saying affirmations.

Any help is appreciated. Mostly hugs :)

My husband may have lost half of his income yesterday which means if ...