For the littles

Hi Daimen, Sea, Evan, nowhere girl and pupple and everybody! This is ANNIE!

its hard for me to catch up on what you guys are talking about but i get that thing about hating it when peoples say GROW UP. It makes me mad! because i think that means that they want me to go away forever and besides which grown ups don't have any fun so why would I want to do that?

so about alex and his wife and stuff, i don't have hardly anyone who knows it is me when I am around, but sometimes I'll just pop out and say something and people think its a joke and they laugh and then i go back inside. there are only a couple of people who know who i really am and i have a name and everything. and how that worked is will kinda sounded em out on it, because wed already talked about the DID or parts, and then we just kinda just worked up to it. LIke we got one friend who used to be a boyfriend of Wills but now hes our just our good friend. and we been telling him about the parts and stuff. so will told him about me and we talked about me coming out and us playing with my stuffed animals for a little bit and then I'd go play somewhere else. just to see how it went. And it was okay, cept he started making goo goo eyes and I did NOT like that! But because he's our friend, i couldsay, "Don't be making the goo goo eyes at me!" and then he laughed and cut it out. And for a while it was fun. And then when it wasn't fun I went away. AND i got a horsey ride! that was awesome!

So that's what I would do. Is talk about the whole thing first, do like just a few minutes at a time around one particular activity. Like play with some cars! or something like that. And then have the grown ups come back and talk about it. Because a whole movie night sounds like way TOOO LONG. because you know grownups sometimes don't have a long attention span, and they look at the body and they think the body is the grown up and they just forget.

And the other thing is even though sometimes my grownup people get really lonely they think it is probly a very good time that there are no boyfriends or husbands or anything because if alla this is hard on us and we sorta understand it, i think it would be really really hard on someone who loved you but didn't really get it yet. So you know take it easy on her, cause she don't understand really but sounds like she is at least trying.

Oh! and i got another idea! see i think even grownups who don't have the dissociative thing, i think they still kids in em, at least a little bit, and just not split up. so maybe see if she likes to play any kid stuff, because i bet there is at least a little bit of kid in her. and then think how fun that would be, to have a kid to play with sometimes!

but i'm sure your grown up parts know best how to do stuff. Don't worry! If you don't know what to do, just let the grown up take over. and just little steps you know?

So how is every one? Anyone doing fun stuff? We been working lots and lots and lots. But I got some new stufed animals and I get to play with em a little bit before bedtime every night! Do you guys have a time for you every day? Or do you just sort sneak out some times?

So how bout a word game? Like, whats your favorite animal, color, and food? and then can you make a sentence or s story thing with all of em?

okay so I'll start
Mine is puppies, blue, ice cream!

Okay, so today it was raining blue ice cream and puppies! like that!


okay, but also i've been sad and mad and stuff because there is too much talking and working and upset and crying around here. but its gonna get better, that's what Pellie (my favorite stuffed animal) tells me.

so okay bye@! I hope one of you guys has time to write back because i get lonely and stuf and i ealloy want to make friends.

Okay bye! your friend, ANNIE


-- Tue Nov 17, 2015 10:13 pm --

oops i used the wrong color -- i used ayns color purple instead of mine orange, but orange is too hard to see anyone so i got it fix it. hope it didn't confuse no one.
okay bye!

annie

ANNIE There are some other oranges available if you wanted to use them for your writing. Only if that's easier to read though. Just if you like. darkorange looks like this. Or there's orangered perhaps. coral might be too light and too pink?


It's exciting! I didn't know that we could type the names of colours to make the colour work. It's been a while since I learned something new about how the forum works. So very cool to find this out!

So the code looks like [color=tomato]writing here[/color] and it comes out in the right colour! Just be careful not to put the # in. That's only with numbers.

A list of the colour names that the forum knows is here- http://support.zathyus.com/topic/423042/1/ [We can't just make colour names up. Oh well. ]

Wow! So many pretty colors. thats really cool Ada thankyou for sharing it.

I am sorry that things have been hard for you Daiman with Alexs wife.

hihi Evan! sorry that you had to stay in so much that is boring.

hi ANNIE hope it is ok that i yelled your name bak to you.

i was right the serjery gave us big boo boos. i gess that is kind of what happens but its no fun! ben in a lot so i can not be hert. miss you guys

Something happened in therapy yesterday and now everybody is upset including me. I don't know what it was but Host kind of disappeared and Host2 came out who's really really clueless but does things ok. Host2 doesn't know about us and that's the way it's supposed to be so he can keep things going. I'm worried because Host2 only lasts a little while then he gives out and I don't know what will happen after that. I hope Host comes back soon.

Evan

hey everyone thanks. Alex and me read it together and he said he was gonna have a talk before we watched the movie with Tamea. He says Shea trying, but she's not super open minded and he said she has no filter, but that she's trying to understand and that he has to give her a while between talks and steps to prosess and that once she does they can move on. But she's still stuck on the different minds part like she expects us to all k ow what someone else talked to her about and that we have different opinions and viewpoints an stuff so he's trying to show her by showing her little parts of things Steve has said to help her see the differens.
And hi nowhere girl. That sounds cool, and also bad about the bad people. I hope you don't have bad dreams about them.
And hi Evan I'm sorry things are going bad right now, but they always get better in the end if you give them time and be pashunt.

Sorry for the double post. Daimen clicked submit before k could add what I wanted to say. Tamea, my wife, is has a hard time comprehending complex subjects unless she experiences them. She is trying though. She just needs plenty of time and experience to put her thoughts into an understanding. And as Daimen said, she has no brain to mouth filter, which I've been hounding her about, but she says that its good that she's comfortable enough that she doesn't have to censore herself. I'm working on it anyway, because she needs to not say some of the things she says to others.
I've tried sending her to the forums, but it upset Steve because he feels less safe venting on the forums if she's reading his frustrations, as she will inevitably ask me why I said that and I will inevitably tell her I did not, nor do I feel that way. That will lead her to tell me that "Well part of your brain doesn't like me." I will tell her that Steve doesn't dislike her, but he has no reason to love or trust her because she hasn't made an effort before now, and that o literally have no control over his thoughts and emotions.

Someone said it was a way to connect on a deeper level, and I'll definitely bring that up.

Thank you for all of your responses and advice.
Alexandr

Hi everyone! I'm glad that Tamea is willing to try and understand you and the others, Damien. I don't like that she doesn't have a filter though. That doesn't seem very nice to me. I do have a question before I go to sleep: How long did you two know each other before getting married Alex?Just curious. Good night now!

Hi Sasha. Pretty well, I'd say. We met in the military and we bonded there. We were together about a year before we got married. She knew from the get go about us being multiple, but I supressed the system, trying to be normal for her. It didnt end very well and Steve got more upset and lonely. He started leaking through and the dam broke. She agreed that I should stop doing that and said she would try her best to bond with the others as well. We're pretty happy all in all, but like any couple there are bumps in the road. DID just happens to be one of them, as it seems that singlets have a hard time understanding multiples, but she's getting there. And even through her arguments with Steve, she's still happy to be with me and still thinks we're meant to be. It means a lot, and I'm as grateful to have her as she is to have me.
-Alexandr

Hi Damien,

Thanks for writing. I hope you are doing OK. It's hard to be a kid when the adults aren't getting along. I hope they remember you're in there and they shouldn't hurt you just because they are mad at each other. You didn't do anything wrong.

We are still having trouble. There's a new host who wants to keep us under control so he can pretend we don't exist. He is kind of scary. I have to be careful.

Evan

Hi everyone! It's almost Thanksgiving! Are you all excited for it? I know I am!!!